shumei the clown

2009-06-07T03:20:00.000-07:00

Aww, they look so sweet right!

Ahh, with the straight hair and lollipop, CUTE CAN!

He looks better with the straightened hair and
also with the lollipop. But he's still damn good-
looking with curly or straightend hair! :D

LOL, I sound like I'm so crazy over them, BUT HEY WHO DOESN'T LIKE THEM?!

Haha I was bored so I decided to post up photos of Boys Over Flowers! I bet almost whole Singaporean girls are so crazy about this show! It's so nice. Yeah, from the way I typed, you can almost say I'm addicted to it but thankfully, the addiction subsided because I chiong the whole 25 episodes on YouTube during the past week and now, I'm not very addicted but I still want to watch it again. So now the show is airing on every Saturday, 9.30PM to 11PM. I'm going to watch it but I'm also going to study on every Saturday afternoon (long hours D:) to reward myself with that show :D

It's ridiculous, to see myself tearing (not crying out loud for God's sake) in some episodes. It's the first korean drama that made me tear, but hey, it's really very pitiful and sad you know. Ah, guys won't understand because they don't watch it at all. Take Noel Ong for example, the damn sore loser who likes to talk about my growth issue -.-" He's very mean, like to bully people especially people shorter than him like ME lah. Yes, I'm saying I'm short because it's a fact but you have to admit that short people are fun HAHAHA. Only some exceptions that tall people are fun such as Anthea, Claudia, etc. Definitely not Noel Ong a.k.a The Sucker (:

But you got to admit, the show is damn good can! I sincerely hope they will produce a season 2 soon! After the big Os, I'm going to watch the show all over again hahaha. Gu Jun Pyo, Yoon Ji Hoo, So Yi Jung, Song Woo Bin are like HOT can! I prefer Gu Jun Pyo hahahaha :D Gu Jun Pyo and Guem Jan Di wheeeeeeee! Yi Jung with her crooked smile is good enough for all girls to fall over his feet LOL.

And then I realise they are also OTHER versions such as Taiwanese, Japanese and China. Urgh, can you believe it. China. No offence seriously, but IT'S WEIRD LAH. Check this out.

The China one looks way too weird while the Taiwan one looks like they're much older than a college or high school student. As for Japan, they look weird too because they're not very good-looking either. SO ALL IN ALL, KOREAN VERSION IS THE BEST!!!!!!!! :D

Okay I should end now. GOOD BYE!!!!!!!!!

P.S. Noel Ong suck :D

2009-06-05T00:39:00.000-07:00

Okay I didn't update for quite some time ;x Whoops sorry HAHA. Anyway, nobody comes here -.-" But still.

I love Boys Over Flowers and Goo Jun Pyo! :D

2009-05-30T09:27:00.000-07:00

GREEN HAWKS GOT SECOND PLACE IN YESTERDAY'S HIHS SPORTS CARNIVAL! ;D ;D ;D

A great turning point for Green Hawks and I'm proud of being in Green Hawks! :D

Green Hawks rock rock rock off your socks :D

2009-05-26T03:47:00.000-07:00

Badminton Preliminary rounds today. Totally kena owned by the Eagles team. I keep telling Jasmine, 'Die le die le' LOL. Then really die. Whoops. Sorry D: Kinda demoralising lah since I suck so much at badminton then I go join zzzz Oh well, its for participation points for Hawks. Go Green Hawks! :D

Papers are back and not all of them met my own expectations except EMath which I got an A1 for it while the rest, is way below my expectations. What a great disapointment lol. A huge one. Oh well, I guess I have to mug way hard during the upcoming June holidays! I'm going to mug and really pull up my socks in all my subjects. With determination, hardwork and perseverance, I know I can. My friends and I can. We can. Go go jiayou :D

I got tired and depressed damn easily nowadays. Not a very good shine and I have to snap out of it! There's no point worrying, thinking and hoping lols. There's no hope, no miracle no nothing. Snap out of reality stupid girl! This is reality. Not a fairytale where everything is happy. Reality is not a very happy one. Pressure is accumulating more and more and I'm afraid I'll break down and cry. I told Vivienne today, 'I wish I can close my eyes and sleep forever.' And she said, 'That's not possible.' Yeah I know, its not possible, but it's good to be a sleeping clown (instead of beauty as my looks aren't that good) where my love will come and kiss me awake. Ha ha ha, in your dreams Shumei! Ignorance is the key.

I'm going to be very cheenabong these few days as Chinese Os are coming up. In fact, its on 1 June, a Monday. Gee, this sucks. Hopefully I can scrap an A2 or even better, an A1. I don't want to retake again! >.< It would be a bloody waste of time. Come to think of it, it's kinda difficult to get an A1 because all Sec 4s in Singapore's secondary schools are taking it. Including those elite and prestigious schools which are so powerful and fantabulous with their Chinese writing and also speaking. Oh no D: But nevermind! I'll try my best :D

I'm kinda random today and obviously not in the damn chirpy mood haha. Oh ya, 1 more paragraph to go, to my dearest Xue Qi! :D

HAHAHAHA XUE QI! The rotten apple. (Translation: 烂苹果) LOL! Today I had lots lots lots of FUN with you today! While people are cheering for their houses, we were taking photos (Gosh I look so horrible, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! DO NOT POST IT IN YOUR BLOG TYVM) and laughing at each other haha. I had fun creating stupid and creative stories out of your pictures (You have A LOT of pictures you know!) and suan-ing you inside out left right up down :D Damn funny! HAHAHAHA! Thanks for being a great fantabulous wonderful best friend! :D Although you're a rotten apple, I still love you :D You're great and all and thanks for always being there for me :D

PS: Sugar bunnies look weird HAHAHAHA!

Sugar

Bunnies

SUGAR BUNNIES!

Yayaya, I know its lame :D And with that, I shall end here (:

2009-05-22T09:44:00.000-07:00

I can't help but to think.
There's many things to ponder on.
This sucks.
Fuck.

I went to the school counsellor Mr. Steven Tan as he made appointment with me.
Just talk and nod my head.
I should try put his and Mdm Hayati's advice to use.

I don't like the way my life is.
Not at all.
I find it sucky, sometimes depressing and sad lols.
I have a sad life lol.
I'm stupid.
I'm a loser, lousy, loser, lousy,

Ah whatever, I'm kinda pissed off with my fucked up life.
And I should listen to JX, stop spewing off vulgarities.
Damn it.

I changed, but you changed the most after all.

2009-05-16T08:49:00.000-07:00

I know this is VERY random, but nevertheless...

MY HIPPO IS VERY VERY VERY CUTE! ;D

I'm very determined to make people jealous about the hippo and so far I have 1 on my list and he is Noel Ong! HAHAHAHA. He's damn jealous about it because it's so CUTE and SMALL and PINK! Aww, okay I'm going to make more people jealous. Next target is Anthea Zee! But she never reply me on MSN ]: Oh well, in school then :D

I'm going to watch some Korean Drama online. But the computer is always being a total bitch. Okay this time it's a good girl LOL. But the internet is ALWAYS a bitch. Suckerrrrrrr!

ZAI JIAN!

2009-05-15T08:35:00.000-07:00

Shumei's adventure to IKEA!

HAHAHAHA. EXAMS ARE OVER! YES YES YES!

Even though its over, but I think all my papers are GONE CASE. Gosh, shucks. Die. OH NO! OH MY GOD! Dad says its haven't O level yet and this shows I must put in extra extra extra hardwork for all my papers in order to do well. This shows that I can play for awhile then hit the books again! I must clean my room because its utterly-beyond-words messy! But very soon a 'tornado' will strike and it will be all over the place AGAIN. And the 'tornado' is of course, me lah (: I tend to be able to find my stuffs in those messy areas rather than putting them neatly. Okay I love neatness, but when it comes to studying, it will be messy again. When I can't find my stuffs, my maid would keep them away in some areas. Through many encounters of me asking her where are my stuffs, she learnt not to touch my stuffs so its always that messy. This is also another reason why I don't invite my friends to my house ;x

My computer now is being a total bitch which keeps hanging suddenly. I WANT A LAPTOP! With a laptop, I have much more space in my study table lol. My study table = my computer table or rather, my computer table is actually also my study table.

Okay back to the point.

Exams are over today and for AMath, 8 marks is confirm a goner because I didn't do the plane geometry question at all. Not a single working. Good work shumei. But I'm totally weak at plane geometry. No, A PLAIN NOOB AT IT. AMath ended at 10AM and went to the canteen with Rui Jun, Jessamine, Anthea, Crystal and Sophia. Chat here and there, then everybody is borrowing each other's phone to play games haha. After waiting for 2++hrs, Kai Lee finally finished her paper :D While waiting for Kai Lee to get some forms from somebody, Samuel Tan came and say I caused his phone to be confiscated by his teacher during the exam because I smsed him when he was in exam about some stuffs and when my message came, the phone produces the sound. Then he say its a joke -.- Zzzzz Anyway, head to IKEA restaurant to eat and celebrate! Met the Diligence group (Abigail, Debra, Fionella, Daryl Goh etc) and 2 DNT teachers from school lol.

IKEA is damn fun! I bought a pink small hippo LOL! It costs $0.90 hahaha. So cheap! Haha. Take photos with the clique, joke around going to one area to the other. It's totally fun! :D Then went down to pay for my 1 and only small purchase lol. Queued up behind the DNT teachers and 1 of the teacher offered to let me pay first because I only need to pay 1 toy while he needs to pay alot of stuffs which he says is for the new DNT room. When I have the time, I'll pop by a vist to the DNT room haha. He very nice to let me pay first :D Then I placed the pink hippo onto the counter where the black rubber strip are. If its your turn to pay, the black rubber strip will move forward towards the cashier for him/her to be able to reach for the items you're buying easily. Other people are like placing many and stuffs bigger than my hippo onto the strip and mine apprently is the only one with the pink hippo. It's damn hilarious. Whole clique laugh heartily :D Then ran to catch the free shuttle bus to Tampines 1 and go walk walk. Kai Lee bought something for somebody haha. Then bused home!

Pictures pictures picturesssssssss!

Okay that's all I guess. Noel says I bully him because I didn't buy the hippo for him also -.- He very weird HAHAHA. But he also very mean because he keep emphasising that I'm shoe size 3 and he keeps laughing about it -.-

Okay okay I practically can hear the nagging out there. There's band tomorrow!

Ciao <3

2009-05-10T23:25:00.000-07:00

Okay I know I'm supposed to study for SS exam tomorrow, but I totally am CLUELESS about it -.- Gee, it suck man. Why on earth must we study SS and elective? Not that they are any use to us when we grow up. We probably just throw it back to the teachers. Ah, see me flunk :D This time, totally useless about it. I don't understand a shit of Globalisation (what the hell is it man) and the Iraq-Kuwait war I only can kind of memorise the causes but not the impact and other stuffs. It sucks having to change teacher here and there /: It's neither helping nor saving us at all. No offence, but seriously. Okay, time to go bye :D

2009-05-09T10:01:00.000-07:00

1.44AM right now as I write this post. I didn't post much due to the fact that my exams are nearing (Next Tuesday to Friday, yikes!) and I have only ONE thing to do, which is MUG MUG AND MUG! I'm so hardworking, NOT! Hahaha.

Actually, I'm kinda scared of exams. I was thinking to myself, what if this is O level? What if I did badly in O level? Gee, I guess I really have a phobia towards O level. But come to think of it, who doesn't? The last batch gave us quite a lot of pressure because they're the first batch for the new syllabus and they didn't do very well /: Shucks, and teachers are giving work like nobody's business (yeah I know, its for our own good). And its true, that my life evolves around the 2 words study and O levels -.-" How pathetic my life is. I bet my batch share the same sentiments as me lol. But nevertheless, life after O levels would definitely be very carefree and not to say, FUN! Imagine all the food (yes, I want to look for makan khakis. Who want to join me? :D), clothes (I need clothes -.-), television shows, videos and movies, etc. TOTALLY DAMN SHIOK CAN! Hahhaa, I'll definitely look forward to that :D

Okay that's a short update lol. Fyi, I'm going to MIA during this exam period (definitely). I'll then consider closing my blog for awhile till O levels. Not interested in computer anyway. Not much fun. So if anything, SMS/call me. But sorry if I didn't reply or whatever. I'll be studying.

Till then and with love,
shumei (:

2009-05-01T02:20:00.000-07:00

Okay some late updates:

THANKYOU

Jun An
Gideon Low (Please, not the one in school -.-)
Veron Ong
Fu Cheng
Seow Hwee
Michelle Tay
Gerald

For the birthday wish and present(s) haha. Jun An, don't say I never write hor ;x Ps, really never write your name. This time you're the first one on the top of the list and also in red hahaha! He's my damn good brother :D

Yesterday had tuition, Gideon suck man. I give him that look when I saw him in a provision shop LOL because he FORGOT my birthday. Thanks arh, my good friend forget sia. Damn sad. Oh well, life has its own imperfections and he's considered forgiven HAHAHA.

Yesterday I got pranked by the duo Rima and Phoenicia -.-" Gosh, that is like THE SECOND TIME. -.- I'm so gullible. Sian. Actually I was waiting for Crystal at the end of the overhead bridge then later we head to tuition together. Then I received a call from Phoenicia saying that the both of them were actually talking about *ahem* then after that Rima got angry and she ran away. Phoenicia said she tried calling Rima but Rima refused to pick up her phone. Then I was shocked lah (duh, she's my friend) then I asked Phoenicia is it she wants me to call Rima (okay, I know this is obvious..) then I call Rima lorh. Rima answered and she was crying very badly (man, her acting damn pro can -.-) then she said she don't want to go back because Phoenicia is being very evil (I agree, because she and Rima pranked call me -.-). She said she was surrounded by many trees then she keep on crying. Then after that she stopped and said 'You're pranked.' I was like stunned. I went 'HUH?!'. Then I hear Phoenicia said hi to me in the background. Zzzzz, kena pranked. I'm SO GULLIBLE! -.-

OH and my vase just dropped onto my bed. And my 6 lilies died and the water is on my bed and my bed is wet. Now it has to faced constant wind from the fan to dry it. Zzzzzzz.

2009-04-27T07:02:00.000-07:00

Yep that's rightttttttt! IT'S WONG SHU MEI'S BIRTHDAY! THE ONE AND ONLY SHUMEI THE KIDDY CLOWN! ;D ;D ;D It's finally here! Whoo!

But sad to say, in another 1 hour 50 minutes, it will be over and shucks, I haven't started studying for Chinese Exam which is TOMORROW. What unhealthy day is that man -.- Besides, there's AMath tuition today wahlao. But anyway, its over already. What matters is...

I OFFICIALLY TURNED SIXTEEN ON 27 APRIL, at 7.04AM! ;D

This 16th birthday is probably the best birthday I've ever had in my 16 years of human existence in this world. Seriously, I'm not bluffing anyone. But it's kinda weird and happy to see people who you don't know your birthday actually remembers them but disappointed when those who you regard as your good friends didn't. Ironic. Not a wish, I'm rather sad at this part, but nevertheless, I'm still happy because people remembered my birthday! Hey, I'm not those materialistic people who wants presents, presents and more presents okay. But still, I thank those people who wish me, who give me prezzies, gave me the bouquet of flowers today! :D

The bouquet of 6 beautiful lilies:

Many love and thanks to: Vivienne, Ivan, Shao Hern, Suet Yee, Samantha, Ian, Joshua, Ping Liang, Tim, Veronica, Shi Qi, Tzu Chieh, Kendy, Shi Min, Kenneth, Anne and Hui Bing! :D

SMSes, handshakes, personal greetings, presents:

Many love and thanks to: Xue Qi, Yong Lin, Claudia, Shi Rui, Man Xin, Jun Ler, Clayton, Munyee, Kai Lee, Erica Ang, Jessamine, Guo Hao, Rui Jun, Anthea, Amanda Lim, Phoenicia, Pin Han, Malvina, Yvonne, Hui Bing (Unity), Hui Bing (Humility), Lynette, Li Jun, Rima, Jing Yu, Noel, Syafiq, Zing, Samuel Tan, Hao Guang, Fu Cheng, Mu Chen, Russell, Karmila, Titus, Marvin, Kok Wee, Ashley, Kendy, Rachel Tan, Shi Min, Chooi Thyng, Jasmine Boh, Sophia, Crystal, Mr Li, Mr Li's friend (I forgot his surname -.-"), Zi Hao, Ping Liang, Phoenicia, Joyce (Xue Qi's friend), Jacinta, Samantha Yee, Samantha Pang, Shermaine, Charmaine and more!

*Names are not in any special order

Sorry if I didn't mentioned your name! That's alot of people. Some names may seem to be in order as I followed who sms me happy birthday first lol then the rest is who comes into my mind I just type ;x But confirm Xue Qi number ONE because she wished me 1 month ago -.- She damn funny lah. Mistaken my birthday as 1 month ago -.-" Then today she was dubious if today's my birthday then she see me with presents then everything just clicked. She keep laugh when she see me sia. SIAO ONE HAHA. LOOK AT THIS XUE QI HAHAHA!

Oh and Phoenicia's CD made me so touched that no words can describe. Thanks Phoe, for everything (:

AND I CAN'T BELIEVE I KEEP FALLING FOR PEOPLE'S WORDS LOL! Wah, I must be damn super gullible man -.- Hui Bing and co. gave me a bouquet of 6 lilies at the food court! Hui Bing was like telling me they were waiting for Vivienne because she need to handle drama stuffs then end very late now going to eat lunch at food court. Then suddenly everybody siam to the side vivienne in the middle with the flowers. Woah, I really kena shocked sia. Kai Lee say my skills damn real LOL. But its really surprising OMG! Kai Lee and clique bought me a Dickies bag! I keep calling the brand as 'Dickens' -.-" thanks! ;D

Okay I'm going to end off my post. Must study for Chinese le. Once again, thanks everybody who celebrated or helped in anyway. It will be a very very very memorable sweet sixteen for me (:

2009-04-26T03:01:00.000-07:00

I survived without the computer! Yeah, I'm so proud of myself :D And tomorrow's my big day! (not wedding but my birthday (:). Tomorrow at precisely 7.04AM, I'm officially 16. Sweet 16, that's what people says. I WANT TO WATCH MY NC16 MOVIE! Hahaha, finally I can show off to people that I'm 16 even though my size and height looks as if I'm 14. But hey, I look young, you look old :D So there!

I saw this picture at Phoenicia's blog:

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to let us down probably will. You'll have your heart broke, probably more than once, and its harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when someone broke yours. You'll fight either with your best friend and maybe even fall in love with them. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone close to you. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every 60 seconds you spend angry or upset, is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

Hmm, this kinda got me pondering and reflecting. It's true. People do break people's heart and also their hearts got broken by other people. The cycle repeats itself. I'm one myself. He broke my heart and I broke someone else's too. However, I'm not the only one. There are other people out there as well. You'll thought the person won't hurt you, but eventually he/she really did. I wish I'm a child, not a teenager. As you grow up, yes you learn more things, but you have to embrace obstacles and hurt that people inflicted on you. As a child, the mind is just simple, pure and innocent. Totally no worries at all. If I can be like that, but that's impossible. Thinking of the impossible -.-

Anyway, life has its ups and downs. We as humans, have to learn to get back up on our feet despite how many obstacles we faced. Life still has to go on unless its judgement day where the world will end. Perhaps that will happen. Perhaps it will never. It all lies in Fate, Destiny and God.

I have this weird thing, that everything in front of me is a dream. I feel like I'm in a dream. People looked at me with this weird expression in their eyes. I'm weird, I know but this is how I am. But its good that if this is really a dream, I will just wake up and everything will be okay.

If things really does.

2009-04-20T07:35:00.000-07:00

So this is how you think.
I finally got to know.
Thanks a lot.
You just did it again,
Right through it.
There you go, you got what you always wanted.
Should be happy right?
I'm sure you are because I'm out of the picture.
I can't believe you did it again.
I want to curse you.

2009-04-18T09:14:00.000-07:00

I'm currently waiting for the new MSN to uninstall now. It's so ugly and hideous. And I want to change my bangs to fringe -.- It irritates ALOT when the weather is very hot, and my sister keep on turning on the fan to keep herself cool and thus the wind blow my hair into my eye and I have to move my bangs to become fringe. Damn it, my sister is ever so selfish. When the weather is just nice, she claims its hot. When the weather is hot, she claims its very very hot. Damn it. My sister ain't nice to me at all. Damn it. Actually, not everybody is being nice to me. There is always badmouthing, gossipping, rumours flying around. Damn it.

I'm just a manipulated toy which someone just chuck it to one side without any hesitation at all.

It's kinda true. I find myself being manipulated like a stupid toy and when someone is sick of me, I get chucked. Lol, what a good analogy. Sorry for being in this kind of mood. I'm affected by way too many things. I seriously can't take it anymore. I need to go away for some time but I can't. I guess I have to tolerate and just focus on one thing --- studying. But I can't lose myself. I can't disappear form people's lives. But what's the point when someone keeps doing bad things towards you? Okay maybe not always, but its way too much. And hurtful. If I should've known, I would choose not to be borne in this world. It's so cruel. Poverty, war everywhere. Grown-ups throw their parents into Old Folk's home because they find them a burden. What the FUCK?! It's so, heartless. Also, things you thought are yours but they became gone in just *proof* say byebye lol. Funny huh, how things work around. Especially in my life.

I find my life suck, seriously. I'm back to square one. I have to find back motivation again. Damn it. Thanks to you, for giving me that piece of news which leave me completely shocked and the weird feelings came again. Thanks. I feel like hating you strangling you punching you boxing you hanging you kicking you scolding you. But I don't see there's a point. You're not worth it. I'm better off without you. Yes I know. But thanks, for being a total jerk asshole and for being so mean. I can't believe you did that so remarkably fast. This shows that you're really a total jerk asshole. So much for all those times.

Hahhaa, goodbye suckers in the world. Sorry for so much emotions here. It's kinda... Nevermind, nobody understands at all.

2009-04-14T07:56:00.000-07:00

Hahaha, I got very sick today. A temperature of 37.4 degree celsius. It's the highest I got so far. It all started with a small little runny nose during Mdm Hayati's lesson which is right after recess. Have a tissue in one hand, the other doing vectors (Oh I start to like vectors already :D). Then it got worser and I have to keep blowing my poor nose which turns red and people say I look like Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer -.- So throughout the whole day, my flu just got worser and worser.

5 packets of tissue bought by me after school and had lunch with Lynette, Brenda and Simone. Lynette keep laugh, siao one -.- Laughing maniac. Oh jiayou jiayou for your fashion theory exam at nafa! :D Then trained to Seng Kang with Amanda Lim, had a little chit chat on the way. She's a fun person :D Then she went home and I went Compass Point to help Hong Kai in his studies. Turn out not very fruitful -.- Instead of studying, we (me, Hong Kai & Zuo Xuan) went Cold Storage buy his HE practical stuff. Totally all I do myself. And I was walking here and there finding and trying to figure out the small little piece of note which contains the procedures and the ingredients. In the end, like anyhow buy -.-

Then went to library. Both of them are taking interesting books, but never read -.- Play handphones -.- Only I do homework, but only 1 question because I keep blowing my nose. Wah, damn irritated by it. But Hong Kai and Zuo Xuan at least got read some Geography stuff lah. So is A BIT fruitful. Well, better than nothing :D Then went separate ways. I almost CMI (Cannot Make It) on the way home. I got mild headache, fever and flu -.- Damn jia lat. Reached home, bathe take temperature. Whoo 37.4 degree celsius HAHAHA. Take panadol, flu medicine and try to sleep but cannot sleep. Mummy came back after work and feel my forehead and decided to let me rest awhile then ask me to eat dinner haha. After dinner took temperature again, 36.2 degree celsius. Aww, temperature dropped. Sad LOL!

Anyway, the feeling of flu + fever + headache is very awful /: Thanks to those who showed their concern to me (: And those who're sick, get well soon! Rest more, eat more fruits and vegetables, exercise regular. Have a healthy lifestyle and balanced diet! Marvin, read this LOL!

Bye :D

2009-04-10T22:15:00.000-07:00

Yes we tried so hard to keep this love going on but we still failed.
We came from 2 separate worlds.
We weren't even meant to be in the first place.
Perhaps God brought us together for that short period is for a reason.
What's the reason? I don't know.
You've let go and move on, but not me.
That was last time.
This chapter has not ended yet because I'm not letting go.
The pain of losing you, is so tormenting and unbearable.
I missed you, I loved you, I hated you.
That was all in the past.
As we close this chapter, we said goodbye to our love which was once in our hands.
Now it's really gone, I'm letting go as well.
Though its hard, I will try.
Thanks for what you once gave me.
Study hard, don't spend unnecessary and treasure your loved ones.

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I'm letting go and moving on (:
Don't worry about me.
I've fallen before, but I'm back up to my feet.
I hated you before, but now I don't, not anymore.
I will try to let go and move on even if its hard so ya.
I stepped out of the wall I built around myself to protect myself from you and further hurt.
Now the wall is almost gone, I can face you and the world again.

2009-04-09T02:57:00.000-07:00

Hi :D

I'm so bored today. School school school. Why can't any EXCITING things happen? /: Aww.. Anyway, Crystal, Gideon and I just started tuition at my old tuition centre MXP. It's near Samuel's house and Montfort Secondary. Crystal and Gideon just knew each other, but I think they'll get along just fine (: Talking about Crystal..

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY CRYSTAL ONG!

Whoo! Okay I ALMOST wrote your chinese name but I know you don't like it LOL. She's such a sweet and funny girl lorh :D You're finally 16. 老一岁了! LOL. Eh but you can now watch NC16 movie :D Whoo! She received 4 flowers from A GUY. OMG. A GUY. The girls were like 'ORHHHHHH' damn loud in class and she felt so embarrassed. HAHAHA. Who ask you today is your birthday LOL! Classmates gave her gifts and we (15 people) bought a pair of Everlast shoes for her :D I choose the design one! LOL. Okay fancy myself giving credit -.-" Anyway, tomorrow there's no school and parents are going to stay at home because its a public holiday ]: No offence, but I prefer to be ALONE at home. Preferably the whole day. It's cool, but I know its not going to happen to me. Ever.

Oh and..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LENA IN ADVANCED! ;D
(her birthday is in 10 April which is, tomorrow (;)

I'm so going to be broke in the month of April. So many people's birthday, not mentioning mine! And mine is 1 day before Chinese Semestral Exam. WAHLAOOOOOO! So unfair ]: It's always my birthday falls before or during exams, or that I'm sick in the last 3 years except Sec 1, but its the time I have to start mugging. Urgh x.x BUT! I still love my birthday and the number 27 :D

I realise, I have to stop thinking and stop letting my thoughts drift and drift.
I have to stop myself from thinking about you.
You're not worth it, I know, but why do I still keep doing that?
I realise, I'm making myself miserable.
Even though my comical self has come back bit by bit, there's still a part of me which is kinda sad, isolated, lack of motivation.
It's strange not to feel anything at all when I walked past you and your bunch of friends.
There's no pain, there's no heart ache, there's no nothing.
Am I really getting over you?

I was naive in the past, got lost in you and only you.
I tried and tried so hard, to keep our love alive.
I thought so much dream so much, happy endings about you and me, but now I know.
I'm not a princess, this isn't a fairytale.
I'm not the one that you will sweep her off your feet.
I was a dreamer before you let me down.
Now that it's all said and done, I can't believe you're the one who tear me down and build me up, like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left me, just left me cold and out of breath.
I never saw it coming, I should have started running long long time ago
You took a hammer to these walls, dragged the memories down the hall, packed your bag and walked away, there was nothing I could say
And now I'm picking up the pieces, spending all of these time, putting my heart back together

Shadows fill an empty heart, as love is fading.
From all the things that we are, are not saying.
The ways you made me feel alive, the ways I loved you.
But what about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me, all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
I asked myself this but as I try to find their answers, I realise we don't even really know why
When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you,
When you're gone, the face I came to know is missing too
All the words I need to hear will always get me through the day are not there anymore.
I really need to feel the unconditional love you gave me which I used to feel.
I miss you.

Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere I can't bring you back
Now you're gone, now you're gone
There you go, there you go
Somewhere you're not coming back
The day you slipped away was the day I found it won't be the same
I used to reach for you but I got lost along the way
I used to listen to you because you always had the right thing to say
I used to follow you, never cared where we would go, regardless of fast or slow
I look around me and I want you to be there because I miss the things that we shared
I know we have to let go, but I keep on hanging on like a stupid fool even though I know you're forever gone.
Because I simply love you

I thought alot, over these days.
I'm slowly getting closure, I guess its really over?
I'm slowly getting better, bit by bit.
And its time I should really let go.
Even though I find it hard, but its been 2 months 19 days.
I have to move on.
What's not mine will never be mine.
I have to try to get over you.
I will try.
If we're meant to be, we will be, perhaps in the future.
All lies in Fate.

Thanks for all the love I never felt before in my love life.
Thanks for everything.

(words are credited to Chris Daughtry, Avril Lavigne,
Mariah Carey & myself.)

2009-04-07T03:24:00.000-07:00

I want to stop thinking :D

2009-04-05T00:59:00.000-07:00

Zzzz, I'm so bloody fucking irritated. Sorry for my language, but its so maddening to keep on fuss over such stuffs and people just don't give a damn to it. Instead of appreciating it, they turn their backs on you and start making up nonsensical stuffs about you which are untrue. I'm so sick of this. I'm tolerating this ever since I became a major. In your eyes, what am I? Am I your friend? You just take me for granted and ALWAYS presume I'll keep pester you about it. That is one thing I DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOU PEOPLE. If you see this post, I bet you that you will keep saying that you can do so much better than me. If you can, SHOW ME LAH. If it's so relax and easy, I won't be writing this now. It's so frustrating and you're not queen dowager or what, why must I keep running after you for answer.

WHY CAN'T YOU PEOPLE JUST GIVE ME A SATISFIED ANSWER AND THAT'S IT. END OF STORY.

Damn it, and those people still in band not graduating, better don't give Rima such problems or I'll come after you individually. I mean it.

It's like I asked TWO BLOODY QUESTIONS AND NOBODY ANSWERED THEM BOTH OR JUST GIVE ME 1 SINGLE ANSWER --- YES/NO. How the hell do I know its for both questions? Damn it. If I assume its for both and when I report to teacher and you claimed its not for both questions, I get the blame AGAIN. It's always been this case. So fucking fuck up with this. Even though we're friends, can you just please spare a thought for me, your poor friend? Zzzz, so irritating and annoying.

And now whoever that provokes me, I'll bite you, hard.

So damn bloody pissed off right now. So if you want a good life ahead of you, stop irritating me.

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Okay, I'm back again, editing this post. I sincerely apologise for those who feel offended by this post, but you have to start thinking and be considerate for others. Don't always take people for granted. It's hurtful to see your close friends doing that to you.

2009-04-04T04:18:00.000-07:00

Met the graduating seniors (except for some) for breakfast at Mac's. I didn't buy anything though lol. Then went to see the band and pass present to Phoenicia. She's so touched by the gift (its shared by all graduating seniors) and she actually cried! Aww, anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PHOENICIA! ;D Then listen to what Mr. Ng has to say. Hmm, I have to go negotiate with Dad and Mum about participating in Street Parade and the concert. I have a feeling they want me to stop doing anything related to band. Hais, dilemma.

Flag day today. It's worth the experience of how the flag day people feel when they have to keep on repeating 'Excuse me, would you want to donate?' It's tough, but as my dad always says, you reap what you sow. Claudia and I shared a bag (I would very much prefer the tin rather than the bag and I bet everybody share the same sentiments as me) due to lack of bags so we (Anthea, Rui Jun, Judith, Jessamine and the 2 of us) went to Ang Mo Kio to try to get people to donate for the needy sick elderly in St. Luke's Hospital. Some people were quite nice while some aren't. In short, Singapore has many ugly Singaporeans. Okay maybe I myself are one, but I'm so glad I don't behave like them. It's like they claimed they have no money and yet they dressed up so fking nice. Wtf?! And 1 lady even pretended to dig her bag for her wallet and when the little man turns green, she walked off. Wtf?! I was DAMN pissed off with these 2 incidents. But I sincerely thank to all the people who actually contributed a little. Oh ya, 1 guy donated $10! Wow, so generous. So far 3 notes are being donated --- 1 $10 note, & 2 $2 notes. It's fun doing with Claudia :D

Had lunch with Crystal, Vivienne, Rachel, Shi Xuan, Hui Bing, Anne and Sophia at food court. The guys went to sit at another table. I was like emo-ing throughout everything. Vivienne and Rachel are right. What's the point of not letting go? In fact, I'm NEITHER letting go nor moving on. What's more, the both of you are really -.-" Suckers. I went to find tuition with Crystal and we almost got duped by 1 tuition centre (not going to mention name). 1 month about $600. SIAO ONE. Luckily I decided to take back my and Crystal's money. And THANK GOODNESS we managed to get back because we're 'young kids' LOL. If we came with our parents, our money may just fly. Went to look at Mavis' and woah, its like SO MANY KIDS. Enquire about certain things then went to MXP enrichment centre to enquire lol. But sad it closes already by the time we got there. Called and enquire. Tomorrow me and Crystal are going to sign up! It's kinda cheap :D But the sad thing is, both days land on our respective birthdays zzzzzzzzz. Lousy sia LOL. But we'll work things out right Crystal? :D

Okay got to go for dinner. I suddenly have the urge to start doing homework as soon as I reach home. I'm kinda influenced by Crystal. I don't know why lol. We shared many things and laughed together. It's so fun being with her! She's my twin :D :D I love you Crystal! Haha. Thanks so much for going with me to all 3 tuition centres and you'll thank me too LOL! I decided to make my life busy with studies and tuition so I won't have time to think about you. Maybe you aren't worth thinking after all. I don't know, seriously.

Time flies and soon I have to start moving on.
Which part of you still attracts me so much?
That attraction, fascination, obsession.
Yeah, I should just forget you and move on.
If I can.

2009-04-01T06:13:00.000-07:00

Okay this is going to be short because I need to study SOON. Anyway, I'm still high-ing over the fact that HIMB GOT A SILVER FOR SYF 2009! Whooooo! I'm like so damn happy now. I keep telling people, zi high myself LOL. Good work band! ;D Now must study hard for MYE!

Yesterday went with stupid Gideon to repair his stupid phone -.- He very sucker lol. Keep on say I bully him. Then he go write in his facebook wall that he feels threatened by me because I keep hitting him. Zzzz, sucker lorh! Who ask him come bully me. Confirm will kena something back in return for that!

Okay I'm going off. Another thing to emphasise, a lot people suck in this world lol.

Stop thinking, stop messing my mind.
Stop it. Both of you. I'm having great confusion now.
This that here there.
Wtf, I'm losing faith, I'm losing motivation.
I'm losing myself too.

2009-03-30T07:28:00.000-07:00

WE GOT A SILVER!

Yeah you heard me and the rest of the band members right.

WE CLINCHED OUR SILVER BACK.

WHOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Okay right now I'm like keep high-ing and now I very tired LOL.

Mr Li treat me, Samuel, Jun An, Jing Xi, Ashley, Yi Rong, Jasmine, Judith, Claudia, Phoenicia, Anthea, Crystal and Rui Jun to Suki Sushi at Hougang Plaza whooo. TYVM MR LI! :D

OKAY I'LL UPDATE MORE ABOUT SYF WHEN I HAVE THE TIME.

HOLY INNOCENTS' MILITARY BAND ROCKS OFF EVERYBODY'S SOCKS! <3

2009-03-29T02:03:00.000-07:00

If we can, I wish we could.

20 hours 55min to HIMB's turn for SYF. Less than 48 hours to go. Tomorrow is the day which the rest of the Sec 4s and I step down to concentrate on our studies and also to determine if we can clinch back a Silver for Mr Ng. He may go, he might not go. Last time he wanted to go, but we begged him. This time I hope he stays because he's proud of us and what we achieved.

Yvonne asked me yesterday if I'm nervous about SYF. Yes, I will be. The thought of being the first band right after lunch and sitting there waiting for the judges to stroll in just sent shivers and goosebumps down my spine. Nervousness just pour straight in and my heart will keep pounding. Stage fright may or may not come. And this add on to the speed of our heartbeat. Pound pound pound. Eyes looking front back left right. Hands shaking, mouth being dry. We jump at the slightest of things. The state of such nervousness is, so scary.

Well, maybe I'll experience that tomorrow. Nervous nervous. But we know, we did our very best. Yesterday's exchange can prove that. Go Band! ;D

Green Hills Fantasy

Thanks, for the message about tomorrow despite its filled with so much politeness and perhaps some coldness. But still, you make an effort to remember even though I bet there's someone beside you who keeps telling you all about tomorrow. Thanks

2009-03-24T02:46:00.000-07:00

I spent a long time reading this book called Tattoo by Jennifer Lynn Barnes. Hey the story is so cool. Having tattoos that give you powers. COOL RIGHT. One of the characters in the book, Delia, she can turn anything into whatever she want. Like a gum wrapper into blue cashmere socks. WTH so damn cool. But if there's such powers on earth, all the shops in the world have to be closed down.

I actually planned to take a nap but decided not to because of the story book. I realised there are words I don't know the meaning in many books but I can't be bothered to check them up in the dictionary. But now I have an exercise book meant for that and it kinda slows down the rate I'm reading books and it suck when the story is like so damn interesting (Tattoo by Jennifer Lynn Barnes). It's so suckyy. Anyway, 6 more days. Tomorrow there's band. Hopefully NO ONE is using the SPACE and if they did, hopefully they will move away when we asked them politely. And tomorrow is something fun! :D Hopefully the juniors (not band) will really participate in or it will be a big boo-hoo.

Okay bye. Oh and Claudia? I love you :D

2009-03-22T07:53:00.000-07:00

This is going to be a very pictureeey-filled type post hahaha.

The cake Jun An, Yi Rong, Samuel, Jasmine and I shared for JX on Saturday

Crystal doing her funny twist LOL with Bernard in the background playing with JX

Crys and me (x.x my hair is SO messy. Shucks, horrendous -.-)

JX and Bernard

My party hat! Whoo. Taken by Phoenicia (:

Me drinking coke/pepsi. Taken by Phoenicia

Taken by Phoenicia also. The hat, JX and Bernard

Crys and me again. Damn candid sia.

LOL THE BABY. Claudia and Phoenicia suddenly took a great interest in him and used my phone and Claudia's phone to take a picture of him lol. He looks grumpy at that time ]:

THIS IS DAMN HILARIOUS LOL. JX HAS A STROKE. CALL 911. HURRY! HE'S DYINGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
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Just kidding, LOL. He's acting damn retarded and with his crooked twist, he posed for the camera. CHEESEEEEEEEE!

Crys camera shy. LOL. She's not lorh. Hahaha. Sometimes only :D

She looks like her hair was being pulled by someone o.O But where is that someone? LOL.

This is SUPER candid. By Phoenicia.

JX and Bernard again

Crys hiding from the camera

Mr Bean and my party hat! ;D

CLAUDIA. PSSST! SHE'S LOOKING AT HER LOVED BEHIND HER.

SEE! THAT'S THE GUY. SHE'S SHY TO TALK TO HIM ;X

SHE'S ON THE PHONE WITH THAT GUY. OMG, COULD IT BE...?!
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STAY TUNE FOLKS. LOLL.

PSSSSST! Claudia's so going to kill me for this dialogue ;x HAHAHHAA.

CRYSTALLLLLLLL.

Camera shy again loll.

Last but not least, the star of the day, CRYSTAL ONG! ;D Don't put her chinese name later she tomorrow come school come find me ;x Hahaha.

WHOO GREEN FREEN! Okay what's all about freen. Is that such a word? ANYWAY. With green light sticks, Phoenicia, me and Crystal. We totally wasted JX's lightstick LOL.

Woah, look at all those pictures! ALL of them are taken by Phoenicia Lee except for the last one which we self-timer I think. But all these are taken with my phone. My phone rock hahaha! It's so fun with these friends are around! Crystaaaaaaal! You can get the photos already :D I suddenly thought of Yirong. Hahhaa. I followed Samuel call her Rongster hahaa. Then I was thinking what about Cryster. Then realise its the same LOLLL. Okay Crystal is so going to get me because I'm taking about her in my blog lol ;x Anyway, she's my dearest twinnie :D Take a look at this:

Wheee! Okay I look stupid but Crystal look fabulous hahaha. Love Crystal :D

Oh and I'm not obsessed with her just because I got a lot photos on her. Phoenicia took them LOL. It's good bullying Crystal hehe. Damn funny ;x

Shucks, school tomorrow AHHHH. DAMN IT. IT MEANS WAKING UP IN THE MORNING, LACK OF SLEEP, ENDURE BORING LESSONS AND TESTS, AND CANNOT EAT AS AND WHEN YOU LIKE. -.- Horrible /: Actually I don't have holidays at all sia. Except for ONE pathetic day -- Thursday. That's the only day which I have NOTHING at all. It's so shiok to sleep and laze around at home. Noel and Claudia are so jealous about it :D Hahahaha (:

Okay time to go! 11.30PM already. I get tired easily, shit. Okay bye :D

Escape the reality
Run with me
To where we belong

Haha, its not going to come true anymore.

2009-03-21T09:51:00.000-07:00

Okay band today. I almost went crazy. SERIOUSLY CRAZY. Wah is like being stalked. Wah play also cannot play until I enjoy. THANKS ARH. Zzzz never mind, 8 more days and I'll won't see you anymore. Stop doing all this and let me be myself so I can feel the music. At the rate you're doing and behaving, I really will go crazy. Seriously. I cannot take it anymore.

Oh Happy Birthday Jing Xi! Haha. Celebrations today but it er didn't go that well. Not going into further details about that because there's sparks flying. Iraq and Kuwait, the 3 causes, which one lead to the worsening relationship. Haha, those who don't get it, don't think any further. Self-declare yourself stupid :D

Celebrate under JX's void deck. Whoo, flour all over. He turned 100 years old in 5min (: Clean up, went to have lunch at LJS. Talk yak chat gossip laugh crap. You name it. Damn fun. We keep seeing Phoenicia and Claudia. Damn funny. We saw the 2 of them under JX's void deck. Then we saw them outside LJS. They want to go NTUC LOL. Then they come back. Damn funny lah they ;D Then Phoenicia took my phone and take so many pictures of Crystal and random stuffs lol. So it seems like 'I' am obsessed with Crystal. HAHAHA, but I'm not lah. She's still my beloved twin :D Crystaaaaaal! Better tag LOL ;x Oh and the pictures, I'll post them up as soon as I can! It's now 1am in the morning ;x

Oh I found this in YouTube. I was surfing for some music videos then I came upon this. I like it :D

Ne-Yo - Piano

Someone point me in the right direction
Tell me where’s the nearest piece of mind?
I’m going crazy

Knight in shining armor in the distance
He sees the angel threatening my life
Why won’t he save me?

All I want is somebody to give a damn
Notice that I’m struggling and lend a hand
They say
Everybody needs someone to understand
Well damnit that includes me too

And all I want is someone to be there for me
Someone that genuinely cares
But I’m just dreaming
It’s like I’m silently screaming

Even though I’m totally surrounded
I feel like I’m in here by myself

How about you do it cuz you love me?
Not cuz you want something in return
Is that so crazy?
Crazy

In the middle of the sea of helpless
But see, I never learned how to swim
Somebody save me
Somebody save me

All I want is somebody to give a damn
Notice that I’m struggling and lend a hand
They say
Everybody needs someone to understand
Well damnit that includes me too

And all I want is someone to be there for me
Someone that genuinely cares
But I’m just dreaming
It’s like I’m silently screaming

Somebody to catch me when I fall
Somebody to help me through it all
Someone I can trust
Tell me if I’m asking too much

All I want is somebody to give a damn
Notice that I’m struggling and lend a hand
They say
Everybody needs someone to understand
Well damnit that includes me too

All I want is someone to be there for me
Someone that I can genuinely trust
But I’m just dreaming
It’s like I’m silently screaming

Even though I’m totally surrounded

Silently screaming

I feel like I’m in here by myself

Silently screaming

2009-03-20T05:48:00.000-07:00

10 days to SYF which means 2 things:

1) determine whether the band can get a silver or a bronze
2) the remaining days of my service to the band

Okay that sounds weird. It's like I'm going to retire or something. Anyway, time flashes in a blink of an eye and I'm Sec 4 already. Even though I always complain having so much things to do for band, come to think of it now, its nothing compared to what the alumni and Mr Ng did for us. I shall reserve my speech during AGM or on the day of SYF. Whoo.

Band today. I love band. I don't know why. I'm happy to see all my band mates there and I totally enjoy playing music with them. It's like the only thing which I can forget about all my worries, all the sad and unpleasant things that happen to me. I'll miss the band when I graduate /: Talk alot after band with Mr Li, Yi Rong, Samuel and Jun An then went KFC to talk to Claudia and Rima. Jun An went home without saying goodbye. WAHLAO BROTHER. Hahaha, I know you'll read this. So mean lorh you HAHAHA :D But you're a good brother :D

Hmm, life has been kinda weird for me. I don't know why. Not as if I don't want to and never try, I did. Just that when I thought I can do it, everything comes back to me in 1 shot. Is like 'what the hell?!' -.- Kinda unfair huh? Life's always unfair ESPECIALLY to me. Life suck hahaha. I got used to it now, but sometimes its weird though.

Another thing, I think I lost a friend. I don't know why, I didn't even argue or fight with you. But suddenly this year we're like strangers. You and her go off together, sometimes not waiting while me and another just also did the same thing or maybe we didn't? Its like our friendship is lost so sudden. We were so close during the last 3 years but now its like, 'do I even know you?' that kind of thing.

Lol 2009 suck. I lost so many things and people. Thanks a lot.

Okay I actually ended my post with that, but I decided to edit some parts. Vivienne just gave me a link to a video and its horrible. I felt sad and sympathethic to all the animals in the world. Especially pets. It's so horrible to see people administering euthanasia to these pets like cats and dogs. At 1 time they're alive, still panting. When you administer euthanasia, it was alive and then it dropped dead onto the tray. People put many dogs in a chamber and cause them to suffocate and die. The way they move the bodies is like moving rice sacks. Oh my god, why is this happening? People poke the cats to death. People shot them. People put a dog into a machine which crush things to become liquid. Oh its a trash compacter. Vivienne told me.

IT IS SO HORRIBLE. WHY BOTHER KEEPING A PET WHEN YOU MAY TURN CRAZY OR WHATEVER AND ABUSE IT?!

Animals deserve to live a life that we human beings are living right now. And they're so adorable, why the hell people abuse them? If it is for fun, you're offically MENTAL. I'm kicking such a huge fuss is BECAUSE these small little animals are so pitiful and faithful. They're the only thing that are faithful to one thing and will never waver at anything. They brought us joy and happiness, why do people abuse them? I really don't understand. If you can't keep a pet, DON'T KEEP IT. I rather you be alone for the rest of your life than you spend your time abusing it. You seriously must be insane and cruel if you are doing it.

Okay bye.

Okay I'm back for the third time because I'm amazed by something. When I online, people start to chat to me and its active, not dead. But it will be dead soon. Like 10min later? Hahaha. Shit, I got many things to do. Bring tuner (I always forget to bring!), uniform for uniform check tomorrow, give names of those who fail footdrill test to Yirong, ask the band who want to go for concert, memorise 2 scores, ask scouts if we can use the SPACE for rehearsals. Woah, so many. Hmm, 10 days more to go! Jia you band! :D

Okay this time I'm really gone. Ha ha ha, I'm like entertaining myself -.- Okay really BYE!

2009-03-15T01:55:00.000-07:00

Hi.

Okay I suddenly had a craving of biscuits or something. My house is totally nothing. Okay maybe there is something, but I don't want to eat them. Shucks.

I checked out some study skills yesterday and came to a verdict: SHUMEI IS STRESSED.
LOL, I know lah, very normal to see me stressed out over band or studies. But its true lah. Eh wait. Nono. I came to a verdict that I'm stressed because my dad says some person say that ur child is stressed no matter how much sleep he/she has taken lol. Anyway, I don't really have the mood to study those subjects which I don't like. Mdm Hayati said those who like Math will like Physics. I like Math but I dislike Physics. It suckkkk. I can't seem to get the hang of it. DANG.

15 days more to SYF! Other performing arts groups are having their SYF in April. Lol we're the first one -.- Stress stress STRESS! March Holidays is here and I'm totally PACKED. The only day which I'm free is Thursday and Sunday which I'm planning to use it to finish up my homework and sleep. It's so tiring running here and there D:

Okay time to go. Have to call Mr Ng, pass down message then watch TV whooo!

Oh oh, heres a video. I like this song.

Snow Patrol - Run
Uploaded by erichedly

Snow Patrol - Run

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

And I can barely look at you
But every single time I do
I know we'll make it anywhere
Away from here

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

Louder louder
And we'll run for our lives
I can hardly speak I understand
Why you can't raise your voice to say

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

2009-03-14T08:22:00.000-07:00

Hahaha I'm here again. The haloscan is for show only so its up to you to tag or not to. But Xue Qi my bestest friend ever says she will every time she online and so far its true lah. LOL! Anyway, on Friday I had lunch with her, Sook Chin, Hui Ni and a couple of girls whom I'm not very close to but their names are Geraldine and Joyce. I know Hui Ni through Sook Chin hahha. Had a great laugh with them but mostly I'm the one making them laugh -.- The Cambodia thing damn funny hahaha. I forgot what is it about. Wait till Xue Qi tagged my blog to tell me all about it LOL!

Band today. Whoo, I love band :D 16 days more to SYF. Anything could happen! Jiayou band! Though I keep nag and whine at you people, I really want all of you to do yourselves and the band proud! I see most of you really working hard, put in double. Those who only put in a bit, put in more! Last lap of the race. We're going to reach the finishing line soon! Those graduating people, must really chiong. Blow your lungs out! It's our last year and our last SYF. For the Sec 3s, its also your last SYF. Do it well with no regrets. Do your best! All of you have the potential. Go GO JIAYOU! :D :D :D

School was as per normal. Nothing exciting happen just that YOU WILL SEE ME FLUNK PHYSICS HAHAHA. Okay I always say I'll fail physics but in the end I didn't. It's actually PURE LUCK I TELL YOU. I can never score well for Physics. I don't know why ]; I learn Physics is like must take 3 or 4 or even more days to understand the concept while others just maybe take 1 day? 1 perfect example is Bernard and Rui Jun. Totally smart people. Totally owned sia. Aiya blame myself for being so stupid and blur LOL. But Xue Qi more stupid than me HAHAHAHA. Okay pray hard she doesn't see this if not will kena killed by her ;x WHOOPS XUE QI HAHA. Okay I love Xue Qi :D It's random but aiya those who know me should know I'm damn random one hahaha.

-.- I'm practically taking to myself. Anyway, this blog is for me to write anything I want. Damn fun to talk to yourself. Can train your typing skills whooo! Then can compete then win prize then can spend money. LOL! I think too much -.- ANYWAY, now I can type faster than usual and without looking at the keyboard what I'm typing. Hehhee ;D Okay its a small achievement for you guys out there, but its quite a lot for me haha. I achieve things at a slow and steady rate hahaha. Slow and steady win the race mah! Lol.

Shucks, I receive a very NOT GOOD news. Chinese exam is on 28 April. DAMN IT. 1 DAY AFTER MY BIRTHDAY WHICH MEANS I HAVE TO STUDY ON MY BIRTHDAY. DAMN IT. DAMN IT. DAMN IT. X.X Okay sorry for all the caps but its like so damn zzzzz. For the past 2 or 3 years, I'm always studying on my birthday or rather fall sick on my birthday (take a look at last year. I miss out all the 'fun' for MYE -.-) Hais, BUT STILL. 27 APRIL IS THE MOST WONDERFUL DAY EVER. So much better than Noel's 7 May HAHAHA. Okay he's a gay kid. Always act gay one LOL. He won't see this because he doesn't know my blog! Whoo!

Oh I forgot to mention. I was totally a 'model' for Adidas Deodorant yesterday. Phoenicia was using the deodorant for herself because she just finished floorball I think then I don't know why or what cause them to do it. Rima, Sook Chin and Phoenicia totally like go crazy LOL. Spray the bottle of deodorant at me ---- my shirt, my skirt, my legs, my hands, my hair. Totally SIAO lol. Damn funny and fun. I reek of deodorant lol. Shi Qi told me I smelled of deodorant. She said its very strong. LOL. According to the 3's theory, must smell nice in front of the teachers. LOL. Damn funny :D They always make my day! ;D

Okay yesterday was also PTM. PTM took a veryyyyyyyyyyy long time. For the first time, I saw there's actually a QUEUE outside my class to see Mdm Hayati and Mr Tan -.- Actually most people would probably want to see Mdm Hayati INSTEAD of Mr Tan. Lol see how Mr Tan behaves is a bit fake like that LOL! In front of 1 particular teacher also. Anyway, how come HIHS so popular one. Always got new teachers come in -.- But confirm teach for some time then will pissed off one. After PTM, rush to canteen to collect my bags. Sook Chin and Rima went off and I saw something then went to wait for Daddy as he collects his car from the car park. OH OH OH! There's this group of guys. Lin Jun and Wei Jia was inside. I don't know who lah but 1 of them throw the ball so damn bloody high and it hit one of the parents' car. Thankfully, no alarm was sounded if not they're like so dead. I told Daddy that heng he park at the opposite. If not his car kena then I don't know what his reaction will be. He's very scary when he's angry! >.<

I realise I type alot. Whoo! Fun. Typing is fun. Hahahaha. Okay bye.

2009-03-08T03:08:00.000-07:00

"You are a very sweet girl, in the past, for the present and in the future."

That's what make me cried yesterday. I don't know why, but I just did.

"We will still be friends right."

Sure we will be friends, but maybe not now.

"You deserve better."

Stop saying I deserve better. In my opinion, YOU ARE THE BETTER ONE.

"You are miss independent."

I'm no longer that. That song is no longer for me. Last time I'm always trying to be strong and you just take it that I will be okay. In actual fact, I long for you to care about me. In the past, I'm always said 'It's okay (:', but in fact it is NOT okay. Instead of interpreting the words, you just take it and leave me alone.

"I'm sorry for everything."

A sorry doesn't erase the pain you inflicted on me. Scars you left on me. Thanks, I'm permanently scarred for life. Yes, time will heal all wounds but I don't think I'm going to be healed fully again. When I broke up with the first guy, a piece of me just died away. When I broke up with you, another big piece of me just went away with you.

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Sorry for the lately depressed posts. I really don't feel happy. I feel agony, depressed instead. Don't bother asking me to cheer up because I'll take a long time to do that. I've fallen and now I've to pick myself up, learn how to smile like last time. My world came down when you walk away. Now I wondered, what's so great about guys that leaves girls hanging on to them. I'm one example. I can't answer that question myself. But also because of that, guys think that they're very superior or something. Girls are always at the disadvantages. In most cases of break ups, guys are the one who initiate it. Guys flirt, guys are casanova. There are of course exceptions, but there are very few of them.

I find myself staring into space, staring and staring but doing nothing, thinking nothing. I have not finished the book you gave me. I don't have the heart to throw the things you give me away and delete the SMSes we had. But the SMSes I saved, is all the bad memories and the coldness you gave me. All the happy ones were deleted in the other phone because of lacking of space. Coldness, you often gave me that. You neglect me so much. I thought I'm the most blessed girl, but turns out I'm the most pitiful girl. I got neglected. I tried to remove the gap we have between us but failed. I thought of every single detail I want to give you but I don't have the chance.

"Don't be so nice to me." I told you that because you're treating me so nice again, like last time. You're giving me hopes. Now the hope is gone. You stop sms-ing. You dropped it just like that. In the beginning, you shouldn't have done so. Now you're making me fall even deeper. Your nice totally sweep me off my feet. You want me to move on, but you're treating me so nice. It's contradicting. Right now, I feel like I'm not going to be okay again. What's so good about you. Which part of you make me have that longing feeling. What are you.

2009-03-07T08:03:00.000-08:00

Okay its 6 minutes past midnight and I haven't get any homework started. SHUCKS. I'm simply too lazy. I just smsed Yvonne, my Sec 1 recruit. SHE DAMN CUTE. Both of us started talking when she 'stole' my shoes ;x Notice the inverted commas haha. I feel I shared an affinity with her. It's not every year I can communicate so well with a Sec 1. What's more I'm Sec 4 this year. Our age gap is like 3 years? That's quite a lot lol. Hahaha, Hui Yu fun also :D

Xue Qi arh Xue Qi! I MISS YOU LOADS! See your big name here (: Cheer up alright! We're in the same boat and I'll always be there when you need a shoulder or a listening ear. Haha. We've been through ups and downs and I really glad I met you during PSL camp! (: Take careeeeee!

Okay, I talked to Xue Qi a lot and we confide a lot in each other. Guys suck. TAKE THAT! Okay some guys like Marvin, Samuel, Jing Xi, Jun An, Xavier (he's Rima's MAN) don't suck LOL! (:

2009-03-06T05:41:00.000-08:00

Okay its been a long time ever since I blog. Nobody bothered to tag also, so this blog will remain dead or something. I'm trying to update at least once a week.

Life has been hectic for me. Tests, homework, afternoon lesson, band occupy most of my 24 hours. SYF is on 30 March, 2PM. It's also the FIRST day of SYF. Siao or what? Anyway, I really hope we can clinch a silver or maintain a bronze! Jiayou band! :D

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Stop saying I deserve better. STOP IT. I think you are the better one. But now you're gone, I have to pick myself up again and learn how to smile. As I recall what you said to me on 21 January at 10.55PM and all the time we spent together, tears are falling. Tears are shed, I'm going through agony. It's been the same case everyday. I put up a false pretence in front of everybody that I'm okay. Friends have been telling me not to do much for him because he's not worth it. But I think you are. That puzzle, I spent quite some time to piece it. It's my first puzzle I've ever done. I never done any puzzle like this. The puzzle that I've done before is like 10 pieces only. I must be a fool to do this for you. I'm harbouring hopes but its not going to come true.

That SMS you sent to me has killed me completely. You left a fresh deep scar on me. You said you shouldn't have come and disrupt my life. I agree and also disagree. I thought I could trust guys again but turns out not to be the case. My heart has been broken again even though you said you would not. A heart break is painful. But a heart being broken twice is harder to heal. That's true. And this time, its so much deeper because you walk away and throw me to the dark side.

Vanessa Hudgens - Walk Away

ooooo, ooooo, ooooo

I guess I should've known better
to believe that my luck could change
(luck could change) ooo
I let my heart and forever
Finally learn each others names
(each others name)
I tell myself this time
it's different
no goodbyes cuz I
can't bear to say it
I'll never survive
the one that's coming
if I stay, oh no

[Chorus:]
Just walk away ooh
and don't look back
cause if my heart breaks it's gonna
hurt so bad
you know I'm strong
but I can't take that
before it's too late
ooh just walk away

walk, walk, walk away,
ooh just walk away
walk, walk, walk away

I really wish I could blame you
But I know that it's no ones fault
(no one) no no no no ooh

A Cinderella with no shoe
and a prince that doesn't know he's lost
(know he's lost)
This emptiness feels so familiar
Each goodbye with just the same old song
But this time I will not surrender
Cause I'm gone
Oooh yeah!

[Chorus:]
Just walk away ooh
and don't look back
cause if my heart breaks it's gonna
hurt so bad
you know I'm strong
but I can't take that
before it's too late
ooh just walk away

walk, walk, walk away,
ooh just walk away
walk, walk, walk away
(whoooa)
just walk away

I've got to let it go
(ooh)
start protecting
my heart and soul
Cause I don't think I'll survive
A goodbye again
Not again!

[Chorus:]
Just walk away ooh
and don't look back
cause if my heart breaks it's gonna
hurt so bad
you know I'm strong
but I can't take that
before it's too late
(oooh before it's too late)
ooh just walk away

Walk Walk walk away
Oooh just walk away
walk walk walk away
walk away walk away
oooooh yeahhh

2009-03-02T07:09:00.000-08:00

I tried, I really tried, but I couldn't. I hate how things are seem to be right now. It's torturing me. I want to go back, and just stay there and never move. If time can come to a stand still. Everything is not perfect at all, each and every item has its own flaws. I can't expect him to be back. He has moved on and I should, but I can't bring myself to do it. I find myself living in our past. You treat me so nice now. Or did you treat all your ex-girlfriends like this, to make them feel better? If I have a choice, I rather you don't talk to me at all. You make it sound like nothing had happened at all. I can't pretend. I don't want to put up a false front every single day. I saw this drama serial, the male lead said not everybody can wait for somebody who's worth it. Then I remember, you said you will wait for me for 5 years to be official with me (with parental permission). It felt just like yesterday when you said that to me. I wish, very hard, with all my might, that, the break up never came at all.

It's fortunate to be loved by someone than to love someone.

2009-02-27T02:54:00.000-08:00

Cross country today. It was a long wait for the Sec4s & 5s because we are the last one to run. We almost died of boredom. Ran with Anthea, and then caught up to Claudia. Her stamina not bad lol. Then ran with Anthea continuously till the finishing line :D I'm so proud of myself because the only time I stop is wait for Anthea to catch up and that's like 5 seconds? Haha. I was hopping to get medals one, but turns out I'm kinda slow HA HA HA. I'm always slow aren't I?

At the end of the race, I went down. My chest, shoulders and my abdomen are aching and my vision is blurred. But I was okay after that. Redeem Milo and went back to the tentage area to see who is the top 10 for each level girls and boys.

I saw you, I almost melted. You look so hot, so handsome, oh my. It's hard to resist the temptation not to look at you. You seem to be so perfect, with the mature thinking and analysing things. I look through my LJ, and I saw 1 particular post where you really got worried about me. 14 September, CIP at Nativity Church Fair. I was picking up plastic things that were used to tie the plastic sheets to the poles of the maze. You followed me, helping me, asking me to drink the cold coke. Putting the cold can onto my face to cool down, letting me lean on you. If only time can be reversed, but I know that's impossible. I still can't believe I'm so in love with you. For now, I can only rely on memories and the things you gave me to keep me going. I miss you and I love you

Watched He's Not That Into You with Kai Lee, Kendy, Rui Jun, Jessamine and Anthea at AMK Hub. The show is nice haha. Though some scenes is a bit -_- Anyway, I had fun with them (: Time to go now. See ya all if I do.

2009-02-26T06:22:00.000-08:00

It's a very hectic and emo week for me. Actually, almost everyday is kinda sucky.

LIFE SUCKS.

Huibing agrees with me too. I don't know why she think that way, but I'm definitely hate my life. I keep telling Anthea 'Life sucks' and she charged me $1 for every time I say LOL. And she start off with 100 instead of 0, so now I owe her $100++ hahaha. Thanks Anthea, for always making me have a good laugh (: But seriously, life sucks -.- All the sucky things appear. So damn bloody sucky.

I got test test almost everyday, stay back in school for lesson or band almost everyday. Only Tuesday is my only day which I can go home right after afternoon lesson. Gee, look at how pathetic my life is. Study study study, SYF SYF SYF. Sian, how I wish O levels and SYF can be over with a snap of fingers. I really hope band can maintain either a Bronze or go up to Silver for SYF. Jia you band! ;D You all can do it! Put in all your best effort in this 1 month!

& thanks Clarissat and many others, for everything.

2009-02-24T01:34:00.001-08:00

(I cried in the midst of writing this. I almost died in agony.)

I woke up with a jolt, to find myself wide awake in the middle of the night.
Then I realise the tag wasn't with me.
As I scrambled out of bed to find it, I realise I let go of it while I fall asleep.
I found it and went back to sleep.
Some time later, I woke up with a jolt to find myself awake again.
I let go of the tag again.
This happen several times.
I caught you and then I lost you.
A simple analogy.
When we are together, I felt like I'm the most blessed girl in the whole wide world.
I never felt so loved by other people except my family and friends.
And now we got separated, a piece of me just died when you walk away.
My heart has been wrenched apart of you, like a thousand stabs continuously.
I was torn apart, I got hurt again.
Now I wondered, what if I had a similar lifestyle like yours?
What would the ending be?
A happy or a sad one?
Neither of us knew because it never happened.
I've been fighting so hard to let you go but I can't bring myself to do it.
Why?
Because I love you so much,
Now this has to come to such an end, I hate myself for loving you too much.
To you, its impossible for you to rekindle the love we had, but you have no idea how I got through everyday without you.
Let me tell you, pure agony.
The pieces of my heart are missing you.
When you're gone, the face I came to know is missing too.
The words you always said to me get me through every day but now, there's nothing left by you except an apology.
Just a word 'sorry' can not simply erase everything.
Why did our love went away when you once promised that it will be forever till we die?
Promises, promises and more promises.
And guess what? Many of them are empty.
At times, I really wanted to hit you, scold you whatever.
I hate you for causing me such hurt and misery that I'm having right now.
I hate you for landing me in such a predicament.
I hate you for making so many empty promises.
I hate you for not spending time with me when you promised you would.
I hate myself for loving you too much.
And, thanks for the raccoon.

2009-02-21T23:02:00.000-08:00

I'm sorry to say that I still love you and I'll stay that way.

I'm feeling VERY annoyed right now.

Dad just asked me if I've got any questions to ask him and I said no. He was kinda dubious about it and thus, I got very annoyed. Okay I don't like him to teach me because he sometimes get very impatient in teaching me. Since Sec 1, I study by myself. During Sec 3, he taught me Physics only. Right now, I'm considering taking up tuition. I have not tell him though, but some time ago, he said if I need anything such as buying assessment books or having tuition, let him know. Ha ha ha. Samuel started studying already. Wow, he's so hardworking than me lah. Seriously, I'm lacking the motivation to study -.- Zz, Sec 4 life totally suck to the core -.- Okay, sorry Dad /:

Yesterday was my paternal grandfather's birthday :D My grandfather is very very cute okay! ;D I find him damn cute LOL! He's the only one that talk to me in Chinese because he knows I can't understand Cantonese ;x Whoo! It was fun haha. I talked to my cousin Candy, she very funny LOL! :D She's like Anthea like tht hahaha. Anway, I had fun :D

Side track a little. Yesterday had band and had lunch with Marvin, Sook Chin, Rima, Erica and Li Jun. OH YA! HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO LI JUN AND KOK WEE! ;D It's their birthday yesterday (:

Thanks Gerald for talking to me on the phone! :D I was kinda bored LOL.

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I'm sorry to say this, but you seriously creeps me out you know? By your actions. It's like OMG, are you trying to tell me something or what? Anyway, I don't know what is your real intended actions and I don't think I want to know, but I hope you won't do it again. It starts to scare me a little.

2009-02-19T05:39:00.000-08:00

Okay, I'm like sooooooooo bloody lazy nowadays! And adding on to that, I've got piles of homework. I still owe Mr. Tan 3 or 4 sets of homework since January? HA HA HA! Actually, I don't have the mood to do his work lahhhh. Don't have that motivation lols.

Had SL investiture rehearsal today. Was kinda sad when it ended because I don't get to see you anymore. In actual fact, I can only see you for this year and when we graduate, I won't really see you. I talked a lot to Cherine. She's damn funny! She asked me questions like use 1 word to decribe coffee. Then I said bitter, then she say I think sex is bitter LOL! It's fun talking to her! Hahaha. Oh ya, Jing Xi gave me a keychain that looks like both a horse and a donkey so I called it horse donkey :D Ian suggested Dorse LOL! A bit sounds like corpse hahaha. Thanks JX! :D

A Math common test tomorrow! SHUCKS! DAMN IT. I HATE plane geometry. It totally suck to the core. I wonder how math teachers manage to master the skill of answering plane geometry. *kow tow to them*

Time to go! And in case anyone misunderstands, Kai Yang is like a brother to me. Don't anyhow think just because we walked home together. Shun lu so walk together lorh. Don't anyhow think! Oh and he's attached already :D

Bye suckers! ;xx

2009-02-17T07:23:00.000-08:00

Okay I got my shoes back! ;D Yvonne is very cute Claudia! Damn innocent lah LOL! I had lunch at KFC with Man Xin, Shao Hern and Shi Xuan. Vivienne came and join us after her little talk with Donovan whom I don't know who is he lol. Hong Kai and gang is totally damn dao, keep irritate me by knocking against the glass panel of KFC, teasing me and Shao Hern together because Shao Hern was sitting beside me lol. Sorry Shao Hern, hai ni ;x LOL! But I know you got *AHEM* liaooooo! Hahaha. I miss 2 Sincerity`09 and the fun we had during the camp /: If only time can rewind and come to a stand still. Perhaps all the happy moments will just stay slightly longer or never stop at all. I wish.

Oh I picked a balloon up on the floor of KFC. I thought it was Veron's, but she claimed its not hers so I took it :D You must be wondering why. I tell you why. The balloon is so adorableeeeee please! :D Hahaha. But in the end, it got BURST by someone called Clayton Lau from 5 Joy -.- I put my balloon on top of the shoe shelf, he went to take and then I don't know why, burst. WAH LAO. I protect the balloon from Kai Lee, Shi Xuan, Man Xin etc with my dear life in the music room sia and pop, goes the balloon. Aww /: Thank God I took a picture of it before it got burst hahaha. Anyway, its okay Clayton. It's just a balloon lol.

CONGRATS TO MEEEEEEE! And also a lot people, for mastering the dance steps for SL investiture :D Okay, off to do Geography, or watch me die tomorrow -.- And I got flu again WTF. I'm going to ask Dad to bring me to see a doctor. Flu is killing my lungs and throat OMG T.T

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How much I miss you, how much I long for you, how much I wish we can be back like last year. It all happend so abruptly. I don't want to get hurt, but in the end I still did. Why are you so cruel to say a final goodbye to me? I'm missing you, every single minute.

2009-02-16T06:10:00.000-08:00

Great, Yvonne who is one of the Sec 1 band recruit members wore my size 3 North Star blue stripes school shoes home /: So I have to wear hers /: We're going to switch shoes after school. I can't wait! I miss my shoes right now! Okay in case you're wondering why, I'm attached to every single thing that I owned which also means you.
Jing Xi keeps brainwashing me to give you up give you up. I don't want to. I never want to. Yesterday, I did a quiz on Facebook Gerald tagged me to do. Here it is.

Procedure:
1. Turn on your music player.
2. Turn on the shuffle function.
3. Copy the song titles as answers for these questions. (Do skip if you don't have the time to listen to everything)
4. Tag those you want to spread his chain-note to.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
High School Musical 2 - Everyday

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Final Fantasy X - To Zanarkland (Piano)

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Ne-Yo - Single
(Lol, so that means I'm destined to be single for the rest of my life?)

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Howie Day - Collide

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Ryuichi Sakamoto - Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Avril Lavigne - When You're Gone

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Kelly Clarkson - Because of You

WHAT IS 2+2?
Emma Bunton - What Took You So Long

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
棒棒堂 & 黑涩会美眉 - 黑糖秀

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
黑涩会美眉 - Hello 爱情风

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Angela Ammons - Always Getting Over You
(I used to be your inspiration, but not anymore now)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
林依晨 - 你

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Backstreet Boys - Inconsolable
(Yeah, I just want to let you know that everything that I hold in is everything that I can't let go)

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Kylie Minogue - Wow

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Timbaland Ft. Justin Timberlake, Mobonix, Missy Elliot & Christstyles - Bounce

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
棒棒堂 - 爱情学测

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Mika - Happy Ending

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Derrick - 你走天桥我走地下道

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
张韶函 - 寓言

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Eminem - Like Toy Soldiers

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Enya - Pearl Harbour Theme (Piano)

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Leona Lewis - Better In Time

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Tata Young - I Believe

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Jacob De Haan - Concerto D'amore

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Gwen Stefani - 4 In The Morning

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
S.H.E - 酸甜

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Audition - You
(I want to change you, so that you can become an ordinary guy and perhaps we can last forever)

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Jesse McCartney - It's Over
(You know its over. You're not coming back. You used to be tripping over, missing me but now, not anymore)

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
伍家辉 - 虽然我愿意

Some answers to the question is true like if you could go back in time, what would you change and what hurts right now. If I could go back in time, I would want to change YOU, into an ordinary boy who has a similar life like mine. How nice if that would come true and perhaps we may even last more than 7 months. What hurts right now that its over, everything between us is over. Half of you moved on, while none of me has moved at all. Not even an inch. What's so hard? What's so addictive in you that makes me keep hanging on? Something inside you is like my personal own brand of ecstasy which I can't get myself not addicted. Why do things have to end this way? My father told me this before, all happy things have to end. The thing is, WHY?!

All in all, I miss you. I know you're not going to come back anymore, which hurts even more and brought tears to my eyes. I love you

2009-02-15T07:50:00.000-08:00

Okay I'm seriously VERY lazy to upload all pictures! Hahaha. I'll upload some only. The rest taken during the steamboat is taken by my camera phone and already uploaded onto 4 Unity's class blog already. The file is kinda big because my camera phone is 5 megapixel, so ya.

Went out with Kendy and Kai Lee yesterday. Woah, all 3 of us were late. I was locked outside my house that's why I was late -.- Anyway, we didn't manage to watch Bride Wars because the timing is damn lousy and we didn't book ]: Plaza Sing was like filled with couples can! Lol, but nevertheless, we enjoyed ourself very very much!

Class gathering was fun! I had fun with my table. So damn fun ;D Our steamboat was consist of only chicken soup hahaha. We throw a lot of things inside. FUN! Brother was damn nice lah, help me take food :D As a sister, also take some for him hahaha. Poor Kendy, she was kena scalded more than thrice LOL! Kenneth was like the only one eating the corn. He ate like 4?! Kendy was eating 1 hahaha. In the end, there's some unfinished food, and we played some number games to ensure the food gets finished :D Then we went to some alley, outside national library, Bugis Junction to take photos. I love 4 Unity! :D After O levels, let's organise a 3D2N chatlet leh! xD 2D1N also can! Hahaha.

It's kinda a lonely Valentine's day for me. I thought we were able to spend it together, but we didn't. For the first time, I spend it with my friends. They're so much fun!

Thanks to the people who gave me notes and gifts! :D It's the first time I got something ;x Many thanks!

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2009-02-14T08:02:00.001-08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!

The presents I received on Friday and Today (:

HAHAHA, LOOK AT THAT. I got so many gifts! xD Many thanks to those who gave me sweets, flowers or notes! I really appreciate it (:

I'll blog and upload pictures tomorrow or when I'm free :D

2009-02-12T22:09:00.000-08:00

After 8 months, I said yes and we got caught together.
After 5 months 6 days, we got separated.
You asked, have I move on and I replied, I'll be lying to myself if I said yes.
Even though I'm now in a whirl of lost and confusion, I know that somewhere deep down in me, I have feelings for you.
It's hard, or rather difficult for girls who had breakups with their boyfriends to move on.
From the first one I had, I took 8 months.
Imagine that.
And the time we spend together, is something that I never experienced before.
I never felt so loved in my whole life.
Okay maybe that's too early to say, but in my 15 years of existence in this world, you're the one that make me feel like I'm the most blessed girl in the whole world.
People have been telling me to let go, I tried, I really tried but something inside me just keep telling me not to.
The days I spend after the break up is so fucking horrible.
You intend to move on and I was okay then.
When reality sets in slowly, I cried.
I wish time can rewind.
Thanks for all those who comfort me, console me etc.
All of you are great

2009-02-09T06:34:00.000-08:00

Okay today practically suck. Mentioning it just makes my blood boils and all the 'fuck' come out of my mouth. Typical me. Ha ha ha. Anyway, so sorry to those who kena from me. It's so annoying and pissifying lah! It's not entirely my fault and she sounds like it is my fault. So what the fuck is your problem huh? -.- Typical of you, kinda expected it. I felt guilty because I dragged my fellow friends down with me. Hmm, so sorry, didn't really mean it but I'll go all out to pull all of you back up shore (:

Argh, I want to talk to Gideon NOW. N-O-W NOW. But dang, Mum is using the phone for like SO LONG. Zzzz, some relatives called the minute I put down the phone and went to do some stuff. I wanted to use the phone again, I saw Mum using it. Zzzz, its kinda weird. When I don't use the phone, nobody calls anybody except my friend's brother who like to disturb him -.- When I'm using it, some relatives call either my dad or my mum. Pffft! What is wrong with this world huh? -.-

Marvin is so sweet! He said he'll miss me when I step down. AWWWWW! I'll miss you too lovely junior! Titus too. Even though I scolded you people quite a lot, but I had fun with you people at the same time. Hugs to all of you! Must jiayou when I'm gone! (: I'll try to visit when I have the time :D

I'm having a weird feeling now. I want Vivienne/Xue Qi! ]: I hate you for landing me in such a situation. I love you for giving me the love that I never had before. Love-hate situation. Typical.

2009-02-08T01:52:00.000-08:00

I'm so fucking irritated right now. Hotmail suckkkk! So fucking slow. OMG. Okay, everything suck to me when I'm annoyed, irritated, angry, whatever. So many things are like piling up like nobody's business at all and I get accused by some people. Things are thrown to me at the last minute. Wah lao. I'm so sick of everything zzzzz.

Okay I just complain everything to Gerald hahaha.

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We got caught together but we got separated in the end. Why?

2009-02-07T02:02:00.000-08:00

Like I said, I'll blog soon hahaha.

I love playing music with the band! Whooo very nice, its something I always enjoy during band, which is playing music. I love the slow parts of the songs, wishing it would just carry on and on and never stop, but its kinda stupid not to stop haha. It's really nice ;D

Family, friends, homework, tests and band evolved around my life. I love them! ;D They're always there for me when I need them (: Especially my close friends such as Anthea, Xue Qi, Sook Chin, Rima, Claudia, Jing Xi, Jun An, Jasmine, Vivienne, Clayton, Fu Cheng, Seow Hwee, Kai Yang, Gerald and many more. These names are not in order. Sorry if I missed out yours! These people are always there, lending me their shoulders to lean on and ears when I need one. Thanks! :D

Recently, I'm finding old songs from boy bands like Backstreet Boys and Westlife. Their songs are awesome and I remember some time back, Vivienne and I are like zi high-ing because we were singing If I Never Let You Go by Backstreet Boys. I love you Vivienne! :D Hahaha (: When you people have the time, try to search for songs that are quite long ago. It's good to hear them again (:

Next, a music video (Backstreet Boys - I Just Want You To Know). This is for you.

Looking at your picture from when we first met
You gave me a smile that I could never forget
And nothing I could do
Could protect me from you that night

Wrapped around your finger, always on my mind
The days would blend cause we stayed up all night
Yeah, you and I were, anything, anything to me

I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say
I would do it all again
Just want you to know

All the doors are closing, I'm trying to move ahead
And deep inside I wish it's me instead
My dreams are empty from the day
The day you slipped away

And I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go (oh)
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me
But still I have to say (yeah)
I would do it all again
Just want you to know

That since I lost you
I lost myself (oh)
No I can't fake it
There's no one else

So I just want you to know
That I've been fighting to let you go
Some days I make it through
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe
That there's a day you'll come back to me (back to me)
But still I have to say (I have to say)
I would do it all again (do it all again)

I Just want you to know ('cause I've been fighting)
That I've been fighting to let you go (oh)
Some days I make it through (and then there's)
And then there's nights that never end
I wish that I could believe (yeah)
That there's a day you'll come back to me (but still)
But still I have to say (I have to say)
I would do it all again
Just want you to know

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Jing Xi, Rima, Claudia, Samuel and Phoenicia are going to perform at the Istana today. Jia you and have fun! :D Oh and thanks Claudia, for today (:

Oh and another 2 more videos you people should listen! It's a piano song played by Yiruma. He's a FANTASTIC piano player! Hahaha. 1 of the video (River Flows In You) is the song that Edward Cullen played on the piano with Bella watching in Twilight.

Yiruma - Kiss The Rain

Yiruma - River Flows In You

Okay done.

2009-02-06T06:14:00.000-08:00

It's pretty ironic. VERY ironic. Will blog soon (:

2009-02-04T05:19:00.000-08:00

I miss Xue Qi, Sook Chin, Rima, Phoenicia and many people I know!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They went for OBS at Pulau Ubin. Now is their 3rd night, maybe they're sleeping now? Haha. This reminds me of my OBS experience. Not many people brought watches so we don't really know the time -.- And there's this one night where we have to spend the night at some unknown island, we have to do sentry duty and its so damn scary because there're wild dogs, snakes etc. Scary >< But we endure through the whole course! I miss OBS, I wish I can go there again! It's so damn fun! :D

I want to crap with Xue Qi again! It's been such a long time ever since I crap with her like some mad cartoon clown during the PSL camp! How I wish she can be in the same class as me lah! Xue Qi arh! Why are you born 1 year later than me! ]: If we're born on the same year, confirm become sisters :D She's so lovable and STUPID LOL! Watch that Xue Qi! Hahaha, she's dumb and sometimes very siao also like me! That's why we click together like 2 pieces of puzzle during PSL camp (: I love you Xue Qi! Be touched that this whole chunk of paragraph belongs to you! :D

I miss Rimaaaaaa! The 3 musketeers you know xD Jing Xi, Rima and me. Hmm, how I miss the days. Now she's gone for like 5 DAYS. SO DAMN LONG. Damn you Rima, why did you go OBS?! HAHAHA, JUST JOKING! She's real funny I tell you! It's great to have her with me when I need someone! She just rockkkkkk! Those who bully her, I hope all of you die a HORRIBLE death (: She's such a nice girl :D WATCH THIS RIMA! HAHA.

Okay there are a lot more I would like to write, but I think I'll write them when thanksgiving is here which is quite a long time? Anybody care to tell me when is thanksgiving? Hahaha. Oh and just now, Gideon Kor called me cartoon! Why so many people keep calling me cartoon? LOL. So now I'm cartoon clown hehehe :D

I talked alot to Crystal my dearest twinnie today! We gossip and confide to each other alot. I love you Crystaaaaaaal! You very cute sia xD We had lunch with Bernard, Tim and Jun An. Saw Mr Chang there. He seems to be alone most of the time ]: I have the sad feeling whenever I see people sitting or eating alone. So poor thing /: Had a great great laugh with Crys, Bernard, Tim and Brother. Laughing like some mad hyenas. Okay maybe its just only me, hahaha! But damn funny lah :D

Seow Hwee and Hong Sen looks cute together don't they? (: Melvin Tan! Don't get stressed up alright! You're my mentor and also one of my close friends since Sec 1, must get back to the always cheerful Melvin! Not that you're not cheerful now, you hardly smile and its scary /: Go complain to people or whatever okay! Don't keep it to yourself. Not good de. Hahaha.

I'm going to flunk Physics test on Light on Friday. Pray hard,

2009-02-03T06:02:00.000-08:00

Seriously, I HATE the ASKnLearn website. It totally suckkkkk. The web page loads so damn bloody slow and now, there's a page error. What the hell?! It works totally fine when I don't use it and it got screwed up when I wanted to use it. Zzzz, what's wrong with such websites? I thought there are supposed to be weekly maintenance or something -.- Call me impatient or whatever, I don't give a damn. I have to finish 30 pages of questions. Mr Chang said that MCQ and structured questions will have 50++ questions each? I don't know, but is around there. Shucks, and there's Geography common test tomorrow. Oh dear /:

I'm talking to Fu Cheng right now, he's one stupid guy OMG. Damn noob also LOL! According to him, he is more hyper in cyber than in real life -.- Stupid sia. For me is both, depending on situation :D Now he become fucheng the clown's assistant LOL! I'm the main one, shumei the clown! He always call me names like Auntie Mei, Ah Mei etc in school -.- SO MEAN RIGHT! Bash him upside down left right inside out ;D

Okay, I still can't get into the document uploaded in ASKnLearn, but kind Bernard has sent me the document and kind shumei has sent the the document to Jun An who also encounter the exact same problem as me! He's my brother :D Oh ya, thank you Brother, for carrying my heavy school bag yesterday upon hearing I hurt my back lol. Actually, I hurt my right side of the back. Okay this sounds weird, but aiya I don't know lah. Now I walk with a limp -.-" I take a long time going up the stairs and this suck because my classroom is located on the 3rd floor -.- I don't know how I hurt it, but apparently, I cannot neither run nor walk properly. Lynette hurt her leg too! She's SO accident prone. WATCH THIS LYNETTE! :D Oh and YOU SUCK WHILE SHUMEI ROCKS LOL! Ha ha ha

Done and gone (:

2009-02-01T07:06:00.000-08:00

I'm very bored now so I'm posting for the 2nd day of Sunday -.-

My paternal grandparents, aunts and uncles and 1 cute cousin came to my house. For the first time, the table is filled with dishes like prawns, chicken, abalone with mushrooms and vegetables, fish and lotus soup. AND sharks' fins soup! All the 大鱼大肉 on the table. Cool :D

Aunt said I walk like okay I don't know how to say it. She said the way I walk is the same as my cousin who is now engaged and in Arizona studying. She also said my cousin always fall down for no apparent reason. SAME AS ME! I walk walk then I always fall down, I don't know why -.-

And I saw Sophia's and Ashley's tags. Can anyone confirm with Mr Tan whether the test is on Tuesday or Thursday? It's nerve wrecking to be unsure of test dates especially its O level year ]: And and I end school tomorrow at 12.30PM! Zzzz, I thought Sec 4 supposed to almost everyday end at 2.30PM one -.- .

I realise quite a number of the people I knew in school has the same birth date as me. 27. But different month. HOW COOL IS THAT?! Okay it sounds lame and whatever but it is cool to me :D Veron (not Veronica) is 27 February, Fu Cheng is 27 May, I'm 27 April. Okay there are few others 27 with different month, but I forgot who are they -.- Hahaha, I'm a very random person who jumps from boredom to birthdates.

Ha ha ha

2009-02-01T00:23:00.000-08:00

Okay I'm supposed to be researching for videos of reappearing coin for Physics, but I got all lazy and decided to change my skin lols. BUT I found the video already, whats left is the actual video taking. Mr Chang wanted to see and allocate marks. I tried just now, FAIL. Totally fail zzzzzzzz -.- I finished all my homework except English. I had 3 English assignment to do ---- Euthanasia, Michael Phelps and holiday assignment. LOLL, I'm like delaying and delaying -.- I'm doing the Euthanasia one now, but I got lazy AGAIN. Michael Phelps worksheet I only left the last question which I don't know how to do -.- And last but not least, the holiday assignment. I didn't do the 3 newspaper articles one. I cannot find any articles that are good -.- Call me picky, choosy, whatever. I want to do articles that keep me intigued.

Chemistry test tomorrow! Shucks, I totally suck at the 2 topics -.- I totally miss Mrs Cynthia Chan! She's on maternity leave. How I wish she got pregnant after or just before our Os /: Her teaching is totally good lah. Detailed. I never slept in her class before. But this year, change of teacher ---- Ms Tan. I tried to stay awake, but sometimes I almost almost dozed off -.- Anthea caught me doing it LOL ;x Whoops xD

Sec 3s are going OBS tomorrow! Hope they have fun :D Get well soon for those who're still sick! (:

--

pictures of you, pictures of me
hung upon your wall for the world to see
pictures of you, pictures of me
remind us all of what we used to be

2009-01-31T06:26:00.000-08:00

Shucks, I have 4 major tests next week.

Monday: Chemistry test on Air and Energy Changes
Tuesday: Exposition test
Wednesday: Geography test on Tropical Rainforest, Tropical Monsoon Forest and Mangrove
Thursday: Nothing for now
Friday: Physics test on Light

Oh and afternoon program is starting next Monday -.- I still have the habit of saying 'november program' instead of 'afternoon program' -.- I'm being corrected many times by certain people! LOL. So xia suay ;x Anyway, we can only attend the lesson for 1hr on days where there's band then go straight to band as SYF is coming.

58 days more to SYF! Hopefully can clinch back a Silver >< I want to get a Silver before I graduate! At least I graduate with some honours lol. But some people, okay most of them don't really know the importance of SYF. I hear people saying how come they got so little points even though they turn up for band regularly. See, this is also another importance of SYF. Just a competition and if you get Gold, you'll get like 5 points? Let's say you left 5 points to get B3 for CCA, and if you don't get Gold, you'll remain as C5. I don't think you people will want that right? So work hard for SYF! I don't know how to motivate people, so I'm using logic and real life examples to show. so ya.

Not much now, won't be posting often. O level year lol.

2009-01-28T01:41:00.000-08:00

Zzzzzzzz I have a very very very very bad case of flu AGAIN -____- I feel so damn horrible, can't really concentrate in class because I want to sneeze but I can't -.- Bernard keep laughing at me unable to sneeze when I want to during Physics lesson. I use many tissue paper now and my nose looks red ]: AHHHHHHHHHH, having flu sucks -.-

Not much things happen anyway. Tomorrow is some CEC investiture rehearsal and PSLs, house captains must go. Sian, totally wasted 1 whole afternoon. Anyway, going to buy some stuff for 2 Sincerity with best friend! Haha, actually its best partner, but I don't know why how it ended up to best friend haha. Btw, best friend is Syafiq! He damn funnyyyyyyyyy! LOL. Yirong is going to develop the photos we took with 2 Sincerity. And on Friday, we will give everything to them including the affirmation slips. Jing Xi, Jun An, Ian and I went shop and save to check milo price, wahlao ex sia. 1 packet with 6 milos $3.75. 2 Sincerity got 43 people. Siao one, why they so many people sia -.- I think Syafiq and I just buy 7 packets and I go kope 1 packet of green tea from my class lol. We still have some packets of green tea left on teacher's table! Hahaha.

Oh, I just remembered. I lose my earring zzzzzz. Okay its the 'lock'. Now I lost the lock, I cannot wear the earring. It will drop. Damn it lahhhhhhhhhh -.- I scratch my ear lobe then it dropped to don't know where -.- Now I have to wear a new one. OH YA! CHINESE NEW YEAR IS OVER AND I GET TO PIERCE MY EAR FOR ANOTHER PAIR OF EAR HOLES! Whooo! Must ask Daddy give me money then I go with Sophia pierce :D She want to pierce a tthird one hahaha.

2009-01-25T14:29:00.000-08:00

"What About Now"

Shadows fill an empty heart
As love is fading,
All the things that we are
Are not saying.
Can we see beyond the scars
And make it to the dawn?

Change the colors of the sky.
And open up to
The ways you made me feel alive,
The ways I loved you.
For all the things that never died,
To make it through the night,
Love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes
To start a new day.
This broken heart can still survive
With a touch of your grace.
Shadows fade into the light.
I am by your side,
Where love will find you.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love, it never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

Now that we're here,
Now that we've come this far,
Just hold on.
There is nothing to fear,
For I am right beside you.
For all my life,
I am yours.

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
Baby, before it's too late,
What about now?

--

When the phone vibrates, I thought it was you, but it turns out not to be.
People keep telling me to let go, to forget, to stop thinking, but I find myself back in the past again.
You said you hope I won't take this too hard and I said okay, in actual fact, I'm taking this HARD.
Much more harder than the break up I had before with another guy.
When we started, I see myself often fantasing us getting married at a church, having kids and watch them grow up till we grow old.
It's childish, but doesn't all girls hope to have that fantasy with their current boyfriend?
I'm like them too, wishing we could last forever.
But it turns out not to be the case.
I asked myself, what has gone wrong, why do things happen this way?
But nobody answered me, neither I can.
I'm indulging with all the what ifs.
I wish I can crawl somewhere and cry

2009-01-24T21:32:00.001-08:00

Pictures taken during Sec 2 camp! :D

Paul can join band and any UGs! Leg damn 90 sia.

Human Entanglement 1

Human Entanglement 2

Syafiq's and my group listening attentively to Shu Xian (the lady in red)

MY FLOWER LIGHT STICKS! CHIO RIGHT?! ;D

Very bad sia, bully Jackson because he got double chin -.-

The 'Yi Hong guy' (by the way, his name is Jun Kiat), Paul and Bryan. All the gao xiao one lorh!

Jun Kiat, Paul, Syafiq, Bryan and Darren. Poor Syafiq, kena tortured LOL!

The 4 girls -- Lye Kit, Pin Han, Karyn and Shermaine

2 Sincerity with the netballers and Mrs Eileen Ho 1

2 Sincerity with the netballers and Mrs Eileen Ho 2

2 Sincerity with the netballers and Mrs Eileen Ho 3

2 Sincerity with the netballers and the rocking PSLs!!!!! ;D
Who does the pair of shoes belong to? LOL!

Again, with the rocking PSLs! ;D

My lanyard with the special and extraodinary smiley face given by FAT NICKKKKKK! ;D

Daryl Goh's, Vivienne's, Clayton's and my lanyards! ;D

During Class Decoration -.-

Ivan as the guru! LOLL FUNNY SIA. I kena caught by Mdm Hayati for using phone to take this shot zzzzzz -.-

Jun An and Shi Qi drinking the drinks Mdm Hayati bought for us :D

Photos taken while waiting for Celestine..

There you go, all the pictures :D

2009-01-23T06:52:00.000-08:00

Thanks to those who make an attempt to cheer me up, hug me, talk to me. I really appreciate what all of you done for me (:

I got all hyper up with Bryan and the rest of the SLB during the CNY celebration! Gosh, it was so tiring and somemore the steps DO NOT have any cold air blasting towards it. Dang, so bloody hot man -.- Anyway, the celebration kinda suck to be honest. Not much fun activities. And the quiz part, wah read like bullet train.

Thanks Mdm Hayati for the packets of drinks and Wang Wang biscuit! OMG I FORGOT I HAVE 1 PACKET OF GREEN TEA IN MY BAG UNTOUCHED -.- Okay the green tea is like totally out of shape. Kendy said I should be thankful that it didn't give way if not my beloved Billabong bag will be filled with ants. Omg, so disgusted by that unpleasant thought -.-

After CNY celebration, went to Just Acia with Kai Lee, Anthea, Jessamine, Rui Jun and Jacinta to eat! :D Yummy lunch (:

--

I'm totally confused right now about how things are going, but one thing is clear,

I'm still in love with you

2009-01-22T02:07:00.000-08:00

It's really over.
5 months and 7 days.
It's all over.
All good things must always come to an end.
Camp is over, it's over between us.
Thanks for giving me the love that I never felt before.
As you walk away, a piece of me went away with you.
I wish I can live in the past.
I wish everything can be rewinded and stop at the day when we started.
The love we had is so beautiful but it has to end in such a way.
It's hard to let you go but I have to.
I cannot keep you with me, I cannot force you to stay with me.
As I cry silently, I'm letting you go now.
I love you, love.

2009-01-21T07:44:00.000-08:00

2 SINCERTY ROCK THE HOUSE MAN!

2 Sincerity firrrrrre up!
Booya!
2 Sincerity firrrrrre up!
Booya!
2 Sincerity firrrrrre up!
BOOYA BOOYA BOOYA!

WE ROCK THE HOUSE MAN!

--

I just got back from Sec 2 camp (: It was totally a BLAST! Totally fantabulous. Owned whole campsite sia. Sincerity was the 3rd best class! Actually, it was tied with Charity, but I think they put us in 3rd because Sincerity start with 'S' while Charity start with 'C'. I dont know, but I'm really proud of them! Even though we wanted the best class but we didn't manage to get it, Syafiq, Yi Rong and I are very very proud of all of you and in our eyes, Sincerity is the best class in the whole entire universe! Yi Rong won the best PSL! And she was the best PSL last year too. Totally ownage sia, best PSL for 2 years :D

Beginning everybody was totally dead sia. REALLY DEAD. But throughout the camp, the hyperness came :D Thanks Sincerity for being cooperative when we need it! Despite the scoldings etc, we hope you enjoy the camp very much and treasure the remaining moments with your classmates! Do jio us when you people organise gatherings! :D

On the bus back to school, I totally kena bullied by the guys sia OMG. Even before that also kena LOL. I don't know why I suddenly need to treat them Milo -.- From Milo to Mega Mac to fries to Swensens (SIAO LOL!) then back to Milo. Then the guys keep say treat Milo until I 'Okay lah, I treat all of you 1 cup of Milo (60 cents)' Then they cheer LOL! You all should ask Yi Rong sia. SHE BEST PSL! HAHA. Anyway, as soon as we finish up the affirmation slips meant for all of you, I'll buy packets of Milo for you all haha. During the bus ride, kena whack on the head for I-don't-know how many times sia! Yi Bin and gang like bully me LOL! Yi Bin, Dian Wei, Zuo Xuan and Hong Kai are the campus superstar in 2 sincerity. That's what I call them because they're always singing LOL! The girls were cute too :D Pin Han very small very nice to bully LOL! So sorry about the lunch date /: Maybe next time okay! :D It would be great if whole of 2 Sin go lunch with the 3 PSLs (:

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I'm at a loss now.
I'm confused.
I don't want to sleep though I just slept for 5 hours.
I don't want to have a break up.
I don't want us to remain as friends.
I want to be your one and only girl.
I want to watch the sunset and sunrise, go to the park and Flyer with you.
I want to feel your touch caressing me as I hug you for comfort and strength.
I'm still unconditionally and irrevocably in love with you.

2009-01-17T08:30:00.000-08:00

Just to note that I'm not able to talk on the phone at night anymore due to the fact that I have to leave my phone in the living room from 8PM till I finish studying and doing homework. By the time I finished all these, it will be around 12+ or even 1AM. So ya, hope all of you understand. Sorry if I don't pick up or return your calls. IF there's any emergency about band or whatever, please call my house number. You can get them through me personally.

And please do not sms me weird stuff or stuff that has been repeated before because I have to cut down on messaging and last time I didn't and that's why I quarrelled with my parents about it. Now we're okay, getting back to our normal lives, but I have to leave my phone in the living room at certain time so ya. Hope everyone understands.

And I may not be posting very often because I have tons of homework to do, tests to study for, practising for SYF and managing other stuffs. Moreover, some things happen and got me down for quite awhile. But I know I have to put it aside when its time to do serious work. Thanks for those who has been comforting and consoling me. Your presence was greatly appreciated. As I'm going through all these, I hope you people out there reading this will understand what I'm going through now.

I'll be away for Sec 2 camp from 19 to 21 January so I'll not be blogging or whatsoever. This year is O level year, I have to study very hard. Seeing last year graduating students got their results motivated me even more. Even if I'm going through a hard time, I still have to make sure I study hard. Right now, I'm trying very hard to separate personal affairs from work. So ya, I'm not going to continue anymore as I think I'm done with what I want to say. As for tags, they're still welcome but I'll reply them when I have the time.

Bye and thanks (:

2009-01-15T00:56:00.000-08:00

It's our 5th month anniversary today.
From the day we started, you're someone that are so different from other guys.
Caring, weird, unique, special and a lot more.
I wish I could have a life like yours, and maybe we wouldn't be like this now.
People asked me, 'what happened?' and I don't know how to answer them because I myself do not know what exactly happened.
I understand you have to work hard for your goals and ambition.
I really do.
I'm sorry if you think I'm not understanding enough.
I know its very very very hard on you to cope with so many stuff.
I know you're tired.
I know, I know, I know!
I don't want to make you feel burdened by me.
I just want us to be like what we did when we just started.
You mean the world to me,
I don't want to lose you!
The only thing that is crystal clear in my head is that

I'm unconditionally and irrevocably in love with you.

2009-01-08T07:22:00.000-08:00

After so long, I realised there's

one thing so true. It's the

sudden realisation that

I really, love you.

2009-01-05T06:54:00.000-08:00

Listen to River Flows In You and Kiss The Rain by Yiruma, a pianist and 说好的幸福呢 by 周杰伦 lols.
Many thanks to Sook Chin, for lending me her shoulder.

2009-01-03T08:39:00.000-08:00

No, I don't want to be strong. All I want is you. YOU YOU AND ONLY YOU. That's the only thing I want with your love.

2009-01-02T07:14:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired right now after crying /:
I miss Yong Lin very very very much /:
I'm sorry for all the things I've done wrong to each and everyone of you.
I love you

slap myself and wake up.

2008-12-31T05:26:00.001-08:00

To be frank, I don't feel very well today. My head is throbbing hard and my gastric is getting horrible by the minute even though I just ate my dinner and currently eating fruits. Urgh, what a horrible day. I wanted to start on homework -.- Lucky Sec 2s, who only got 1 homework, which is chinese articles. Lucky kiddos.

Anyway, I went out with Sook Chin today. Last minute we suggested watching Bedtime Stories, but the queue is awfully long and by the time we wanted to watch it, its already 2.47PM and the movie starts at 2.50PM. Shaw has weird movie timings. The next timing was around 7. Kinda weird.

It's the last day of 2008 already, and all of times, I got sick on this particular day --- today. Charissa sent me this message this morning which makes me think a lot:

Another year of our lives is about to slip into history. How well did you fare this year? Today is your last chance to do some self-reflection. Did you manage to accomplish something you wanted to this year? How about those you didn't? Are there any regrets? Are you fully apprecciative of everyone around you? Have you lived life to the fullest or are you just wasting your life away? Not to worry if your responses for the above questions are negative. Take time to think about it and write down specific goals you want for the coming and hopefully better year ahead. Make sure you're clear in your mind what an eventful and meaningful you want to have. Spend the rest of the day psyching up for the hopeful new year.

This make me think alot. I didn't manage to get money from the government for being the top 10%. I didn't cherish the time I spend with you when you're free, and now you're not and yet I'm wishing you could spend time with me.

Now I want to make things right. I want to study hard and score well for O levels. I want to cherish every single second I spend with you, looking at you, talking to you etc.

Last but not the least, I want to thank those who stand by me during my ups and downs, and I apologised greatly for those actions that I hurt those around me. Life is nothing without you guys. You care when I cry, you smile when I smile. It's great to have such fantabulous friends with me.

when you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot, hang on and call for me.

2008-12-30T05:40:00.000-08:00

Okay I'm like SO DAMN LAZY IN DOING HOMEWORK CAN! I don't have much motivation now. I still have jet lag, and kinda sensitive now /: Sorry people if I irritate you or something. I need to get back to my normal life. Now majority of me is still on vacation and in America. The minority of me is in Singapore, but still on vacation -.-

Lol, sometimes I don't get myself either. I think I'm going to sleep for a few hours and then get a start on those homework I need to complete. I hate newspaper articles, it totally suck. I wouldn't be bothered to do them if not for CA marks -.- Dad just came back from China with all the America photos developed. My pet clownie is sleeping now at pet society lol. Katy Perry's Hot N Cold is damn nice and addictive! Now Gideon is addicted to it hahaha! See kor, NICE RIGHT! :D I'm talking about random things now. I just type what comes into my mind.

I'm going out with Sook Chin tomorrow for bag and handphone sock hunting lol. I find myself VERY VERY SLOW in processing data etc. Still got the jet lag in me haha. 10 min rest I hear as 10 min sectionals -.- A lot of things happen and I behaved in a very stupid manner oh no /: And next year I'm going to be Sec 4. I'm SO NOT ready for it. O levels, can I just keep having fun and don't take you lol. It's kinda impossible, but it's everybody's dream haha. I'm going to finish my apple slices, sleep for a couple of hours, wake up, do homework then sleep again.

2008-12-28T05:52:00.000-08:00

I'm back from PSL camp!

The camp was fun and interesting! I learn ALOT of leadership skills etc which I never learn before in other aspects of learning leadership skills. I make many friends too! I LOVE XUE QI! She's one damn cute girl :D But she very slow lorh cos she injured her right knee /: Aww.. Anyway, I'm SO nice ;x to help her in every way LOL! I now very BHB lorh hahahaha. She's like almost my twin lah! We are very similar in many ways! She's born on 27 june, I'm born on 27 april. So on and so forth. Many people are born on 27 something. SO COOL RIGHT! 27 is my favouriteeeeeee number ;D

At the beginning we were strangers, but after 3D2N of being together for each other, having fun, crap around, laugh like some ki siao people etc, we really bonded very well! Thanks for being so cute and funny :D Take care of your knee! I WANT TO KNOW YOUR *AHEM* AND *AHEM* STORY! During the whole camp, I keep telling her mine, now is her turn to tell me hers liao :D I'll BUG her for it :D

School is going to reopen soon and shucks, I didn't complete most of them /: Die, CONFIRM. And I'm going to watch Twilight with clique! ;D ;D FINALLY AN OUTING! HAHA.

I slept at around 2.45PM and woke up at 8.15PM. My dinner is Mac's apple pie and Sweet Talk's peach bubble tea -.- Now I'm having apple slices. I left 2 pieces to go, hais /:

Okay not much now, bye (:

2008-12-25T05:02:00.000-08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Hahaha, its Christmas today! Merry Christmas to everybody out there! ;D

Gideon is a very stupid person LOL, but he's a fun person haha! YOU STILL OWE ME SCORES! lol. GO ORGANISE SECTION OUTING LEH! ;D

Don't be mistaken eh, he's my kor :D

Psst! Must treat your mei very very very well! HAHAHA LOL. I miss Janan, my godly entertainer ]: He ALWAYS makes me laugh without fail sia. He also give me advice, but sometimes I don't like to listen to him LOL. He's my god brother :D

Faster come home love, I'm missing you badly /:

2008-12-24T00:26:00.000-08:00

Dad got super angry at me yesterday because I didn't answer his calls. He thinks I've done it on purpose. WHAT THE HELL?! -.- I was having lunch with Jing Xi's mum and I placed my wallet and handphone in the plastic bag filled with my school books. Zzz, what is so wrong with him man! Flaring up over such minor stuffs -.- Besides, he also warn me that I have 2 bloody chances left and if all 2 are over, he will confiscate my phone. Confiscate lah, like I give a bloody fucking damn to it -.- I don't see you saying that to sis when she didn't reply your sms from 9+ to 1+. It's so unfair. Roarrrrr!

I hate the feeling of being accused. It sucks, TOTALLY SUCK. Always Mum and Dad will start accusing me of something that I DID NOT DO. It's so bloody fucking unfair lah. Just because my sms usage is 1352 and I used some sms in America, doesn't mean they have the rights to scold me or whatever! They're SO UNREASONABLE. I hate people being so unreasonable. So 霸道. Thinking they own the whole bloody world and they're always right. Pfft!

I'm eating chocolate now. I don't understand why people claim that they 'love' chocolates and they like to eat them when they're sad or angry or whatever. Maybe its me, but don't you ever get sick of eating them constantly and continuously? Ice cream is like so much of the better choice! Chocolate lovers out there, if you think I'm wrong or something, shut the fuck up and don't bother to leave any comments -.- I'm in a very bad mood today. Seriously.

Thanks Marvin for taking the time to give me the 'Light of Dawn' scores today. People who make **** cry, SCREW YOU. (I decided not to put the person's name just in case he/she doesn't want to be mentioned in here.) What is SO wrong with you people man. Neither soft nor tough approach you take. It's so tiring to see people trying and trying, and in the end, it goes down all into a big FLOP. Sucky people, I hate you!

Oh and my teddy bear (Anthea, LOOK HERE! HAHA :D) officially turns 6 today. I was wondering, having to be born on 25 dec is SO COOL! I wish I'm born on 25 dec, but nah, I'm on 27 April ;D

Yesterday, I got my new phone --- C902. W705 looks good, but too bad Starhub shops doesn't sell them YET because its still new. Finally I've got what I want. I waited for more than a year. Seriously, I don't trust Nokia anymore ever since my first phone which is Nokia brand, spoiled few months after I bought it. Besides, Dad and Auntie keep brainwashing me, saying its a good phone, but it turns out to be so bloody lousy. In and out of service centres, people there claims 'its fixed' but actually, IT'S NOT. The problem is still there, I mention the problem, they say its fixed, but no, its not. Slap all of them man. Sorry people, I'm in a VERY bad mood ever since yesterday I got accused. I don't have mood for anything at all but to fume and rant out everything. Life's unfair, what do I even expect? -.-

GOODBYE.

2008-12-21T22:56:00.000-08:00

I'm back from America! :D

We reached home at 2.45AM sharp and I slept around 4.15AM. The flight was long, tiring and very uncomfortable /: I couldn't get to sleep during the flight from LA to Tokyo -.- But from Tokyo to Singapore, I slept like a baby and woke up once to tell the air stewardess I don't want to have dinner haha. I think I gained weight -.- Eating and sleeping, eating and sleeping. Urgh.

America was fun, with funny people on the tour, fantabulous! But there's some unhappy stuffs that happen during the tour, but oh well, it's accidental. Okay, maybe some, maybe some on purpose? Hahaha. Make new friends, joke around, fun. Hui Ting was totally damn funny lah. She and her brother, Yao Zhong (NAO ZHONG! LOL) like to bully me lorh -.- On the flight from LA to Tokyo, I was actually sitting with Mum and sis. Sis was at the window seat, Mum in the middle, I'm in the aisle. Sis wanted to watch a movie, but when she plugged in the headset, there's only background noise but no people talking when there's supposed to be. Called the air steward to help out etc etc and in the end, I end up changing seat with Dad. It was damn uncomfortable lah. So cramp OMG. Oh ya, we took the new SQ to America, but we took the old SQ back to Singapore /: Yao Zhong damn funny lah, keep disturbing me -.-" LOL, he and Hui Ting damn funny lorh. Very very fun to talk to :D :D

I don't have any pictures to upload because my sis accidentally deleted all of them so ya. Kinda disappointing, sad, angry, whatever but its accidental lols. Sometimes she treat me very differently. It's 3.04PM now and she's still in bed -.- Usually I'm the LAST one to wake up, but this time I woke up before my brother lols -.- Anyway, I bought souvenirs (I got nagged by it -.-), 2 authentic GUESS wallets, 2 soft toys, 1 shirt and 1 authentic GAP pull over :D For the first time, I saw Dad bought a lot of things for himself :D Ralph Lauren, Clarks, GAP, whatever (:

Bad news man. I have not completed my holiday homework D: AND SCHOOL IS GOING TO REOPEN. Shucks /: It means O levels! Totally suck man. Urgh, I think I forgot a lot of things already ;x WHOOPS! Hahaha. Not much to do these days except for chionging homework, watch Twilight, alter my 2 new school skirts, practice set and choice piece for SYF etc. I miss a lot of people lols. Yong Lin, Anthea, Sook Chin, Rima, Jing Xi, my joker juniors, Claudia, Phoenicia and my teddy bear! :D It's going to turn 6 officially on the 24th of december. It's so cute sitting on top of my pillow on my bed, waiting for me to return from America. Aww..

I think I'm going to start doing my homework at night :D I work best at night! Haha. I need some motivation. LOADS OF IT. I think on the day school reopens, must go early, chop seats :D LOL. I sound damn Auntie but aiya really everybody go early chop seats one lorh. I want my 3rd column 3rd row seat back! Sitting with Anthea again and Rui Jun and Jessamine behind me totally rocked ;D Come to think of it, I didn't talk to Jessamine for like so loooooooong! ]: I miss her! LOL, I'll text her maybe later or tomorrow. Then when we meet up in school or something, I'll bully her hehehehe! Hope she doesn't see this if not totally dead LOL!

Sook Chin misses me! HAHAHAAAAA! I MISS YOU TOO! ;D I miss everybody (: America is fun. I start to miss America already /: It's kinda fun when people in Singapore are sleeping while people in America are waking up, going for work, amusement parks, etc. TOTALLY FUN. Shit, I just remember. I have not bought my books for next year yet -.- Some books must buy siannnnn. Totally sickening sia /:

It was snowing by the time we got to Grand Canyon. It's a very very very RARE sight you know! It was so beautiful. Snow ball fights are fun, but too many people there. Aww.. Okay nothing much to say now. Hopefully photos can be recovered so I can upload them haha.

2008-12-08T00:48:00.000-08:00

Hello, this post is going to be filled with pictures. Enjoy (:

6 December 2008 ; Mr Ng's Wedding

Abandoned abacus bead?

The table Rima, Samuel and I are sitting at

The entrance of Mr and Mrs Ng

The glass in the oval is meant for Mr Ng ;x
It's filled with chilli, chilli sauce, some other sauce,
soy sauce,red bean soup LOL!

The brothers toasting outside the ballroom

Mr Ng drinking the weird drink.

Formal and Informal shot (:

Rima and I :D

7 December 2008; Rhythm on the course competition & Quan Neng Qiao Ma Ma Live

Me and Phoenicia :D (Btw, we got 3rd position)

Claudia with her medal and blue bandana

Rima with her medal and orange bandana

SPOT THE DIFFERENCE! Hahaha

Imm Joo and the sign

Mine and Sook Chin's flats

Imm Joo and Rima (:

Sook Chin, Me, Rima & Imm Joo outside the reception area

Me, Sook Chin, Rima & Imm Joo at the TV Theatre

Their performance :D :D

Find Tee Yong, Jing Xi, Claudia & Phoenicia!

Imm Joo, Rima, Sook Chin & Me ;D

BYE ;D

2008-12-05T06:55:00.000-08:00

HELLO! ;D I finally bought myself a white wallet from the wallet shop and something else which I can't reveal yet until next week hahaha. Okay it's nothing actually, but it means a lot to me. Thanks Rima for accompanying me to Bugis! :D Photos now! ;D Kope from Rima. I'm going to find somemore from Kelly, Hui Ting and Sook Chin! Hehehe.

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Gideon, Kelly, Hui Ting, Me & Rima :D :D

Kelly, Gideon & Me :D

Lemuel, Rima, Gideon & Me :D :D :D

Imm Joo, Rima, Me & Sook Chin

Imm Joo, Rima, Me, Sook Chin & Samuel :D

Sook Chin, Imm Joo & Rima part 1

Sook Chin, Imm Joo & Rima part 2

NCO GROUP F ROCKS LIKE SIAO! ;D ;D ;D

After 50th Anniversary (:

2008-12-04T07:51:00.001-08:00

Rima here!

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HAHAHA, THAT'S RIMA BLOGGING HAHA! Phoenicia, Jing Xi, Rima and I are at Claudiaaaaaaaaaaa's house :D :D Her dogs: Max, Chelsea (Chin Chow) and Charlotte (Chocolate). Charlotte went to 'bite' Phoenicia and now Phoenicia doesn't like her and only likes Chin Chow. I like Chocolate! She likes me too :D Keep wanting me to sayang her ((: NOBODY LIKES MAX EXCEPT CLAUDIA! Okay just joking, we like all 3 dogs. Max is damn horny and scary sia! CHOCOLATE AND CHIN CHOW ARE STILL MY FAVOURITES! You people should see Rima's and Phoenicia's reaction when the dogs come. I nearly had a heart attack thrice because the dogs suddenly bark IN FRONT OF MY FACE. Ah, so scary! Later Samuel is coming and I heard he's afraid of cats and dogs ;x (No offence Samuel! Not trying to imply anything!)

Kinda rotting here now, waiting for Samuel to bring our lunches. THANKS SAMUEL! ;D Claudia lost her ipod cable WAHLAO. Now my nano is low batt -.-" I WANT TO HEAR ANIMATION MEDLEY AND CONCERT D'AMORE! I WANT THE SCORES TOO! GIDEON!!!!!!! FASTER PHOTOCOPY THEN GIVE ME! ;D ;D ;D TYVM HAHAHA! Haha I'm listening to Animation Medley now. So nice and touching! OMG. I'm so going to watch Howl's Moving Castle! Saw 1 girl playing Nobody's gonna change my love for you (I think that's the title) on the saxophone. So damn pro lah! I think I'll be so touched that I'll cry if someone actually played or sing that for me. She's so friggin' pro lah!

Claudia's house was SO fun! :D Jing Xi and Samuel act like I-don't-know what LOL! Damn funny! :D Tomorrow we'll be heading to Rima's house to choreograph some dance steps for the drum line competition. Saturday is Mr Ng's wedding dinner, Sunday is the actual competition, my cousin's engagement and go Mediacorp to watch Quan Neng Qiao Ma Ma. Hahahaha, busy but fun :D

I miss Yong Lin♥ very very very much D:

2008-12-03T07:21:00.000-08:00

What a day! My new baby alto saxophone has arrived! Along with 1 tenor, 1 baritone, 6 cornets and 2 eupho haha! The sad thing is, the alto sax mouth piece doesn't come with the case and the saxophone /: And one part of the saxophone is retarded! OMG! But it needs to be oiled and greased. Ah! Should have borrow it home! Haha, I won't be able to use it till next year ]: MARVIN! YOU BETTER HELP ME TAKE EXTRA EXTRA GOOD CARE TO IT! :D

Went to Monfort Secondary with Imm Joo, Rima, Sook Chin and Samuel :D I saw Gideon! HAHAHA! He's so obvious there lol, with the red sash hahaha. He played the solo! Hahaha! His DM Lemuel is in blue sash. The concert was quite okay and I like Animation Medley and Concerto D'Amore the best :D After the concert, gave Gideon the bouquet of 8 stalks of foam roses made by Imm Joo ;x So sorry eh, I don't know how to do so I asked her to help me ;x When I know how to do one I give you again ahaha! Hui Ting (34th NCO DM) gave him a real rose though haha! I saw Kelly! Saxophonist and BM too :D Took loads of pictures with them and the Monfort Majors. They super busy sia, must wait for them to be less busy then can take picture with them -.- Aiyo! So sorry Rima and company. You people have to wait for me /: Sorry! And please don't anyhow spread the you know lol.

I've been going out these days but quite fun! I get to bond with those friends I've never talked much haha! And sorry Daddy, I'll study in the night! I promise (: As I said before, I work best at night! :D Oh yeah, pictures right, I'll kope from Rima's blog ;x HAHA! KELLY! IF YOU SEE THIS, SEND ME ALL YOUR PHOTOS YOU AND HUITING HAS VIA MSN! ;D ;D

Okay bye ;D

2008-12-02T04:29:00.000-08:00

Ahaha, I got my tooth pulled out. Like FINALLY. Mum asked me why at the age of 15, I still have my baby teeth. I replied saying I don't know, it's not as if I wanted it. This nice dentist told me its my last baby tooth (I think that's what he said) whoo! The anesthesia didn't wore off from 2.40PM till just now -.- WOW, that must be some strong anesthesia! -.-"

I finished my chemistry TYS assignment WHOOOO! I actually finished something when I thought I never will. What's left is AM, EM, Geography, Chinese (Dang, it's A LOT of work -.-) and Physics. Holiday homework suck!!!!!!!! I bet everyone agrees with me! HAHAHA!

I'm going to Mr Ng's wedding at a hotel outside Terminal 3 on 6 dec with Rima and Samuel! Totally excited :D Let's meet earlier then explore Terminal 3 leh! I never go in before -.-" Kinda stupid huh? Aiya if Jing Xi go how nice, but he's not because of Mediacorp -.- No offence, but a bit spoiler ;x Nevertheless, have fun in Mediacorp! :D Win the snob! (:

Sis was hogging on the internet, watching some video online. She plugged in some cable and that cause me NOT able to use the internet -.- I ended up opening folders to see what's inside, and listening to music -.- Kinda stupid -.- I went to read some of the chatlogs that I saved. It brought back many memories. I was so engrossed in reading the entire conversation that I didn't know the songs I played has ended and had changed to a new one. Memories are always sweet and lasting. I want to live in memories where people will not forget me, I will not forget the fun and happiness I had. If only life is filled with fun and happiness, no sadness or anger. It will definitely make the world and all of us better.

I'm going to America on 11 December. I don't feel like going /: But I have to go. It's hard to be apart.

2008-11-29T05:53:00.000-08:00

Seriously, I don't have the mood to start Physics project or any homework sia! But I manage to do some this afternoon OMG. Anthea feels the same way as me too ;x AH ZEE WHERE ARE YOU MAN! I'VE GOT SO MUCH THINGS TO TELL YOU LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! ;x Anthea is my best friend since Sec 1 :D Though she's tall and I'm short, we practically complete each other (: She's quiet while I'm like a chatterbox which talk ALOT ;x She's tall and I'm short. I always bully her :D In a good way okay! (: She's one girl that gives good advices and console you when you're down. I LOVE YOU ANTHEA ZEEEE! ;D See, I write something about you leh! You better reply something LOL! (:

Jing Xi, Rima and Samuel bombed me with a bad news --- JINGXI GOT MEDIACORP REHEARSAL WITH THE QUAN NENG QIAO MA MA FROM 8PM TO 10PM ON 6 DEC WHICH IS MR NG'S WEDDING. AHHHHHHHHHH WTH IS THIS MAN!!!!!!!! Spoil the 3 musketeers -.-" WAHLAO! Damn bad lahhhhhh! No offence but its so bloody unfair lorh. For the first time we're able to go to something where we can enjoy ourselves! Life is simply VERY unfair. Screw the people who aren't free in the morning or afternoon. Thanks for the big surprise (sense my sarcasm). THANKS A LOT (more and more sarcasm).

I'm very bored. Bored, bored and more bored. I want to go Night Safari, Singapore Flyer, park etc etc! Yong Lin♥ you better remember what you promised me! :D

I think I'm going to watch some movies! :D Bye (:

2008-11-28T00:22:00.000-08:00

For the first time, I see many people getting dressed up for something special --- Singout. Everybody has that radiant glow shown in their faces and that shows they're really excited about Singout. Photos were taken with each other, smiles lingering in their faces. What a night! Singout was fantastic and its great to see many people from our school turn up to give their support for the event :D

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HAHA I don't know why I wrote that paragraph lol. I suddenly have the urge to write something like a reporter LOL! But that's not my ambition. My English isn't that good as Vivienne's or Veronica's haha. My maid and I packed my wardrobe. Actually its my maid only, I just help to fold some clothes and give my opinions to keep or throw lols. Now my wardrobe is super neat and no more tall towers of clothings! I have clothes ranging from Primary 5 to now LOL! It's kinda sad to throw them but if I get rid of them, I don't have space for new clothes /:

HAH! Marvin regretted not taking photo with me on Singout night D: See lah, never take haiyooooo! Never mind, there's always next time :D It's the first time I dress myself up and carry a tote bag -.- I think I look very horrible LOL! I saw Claudia OMG! She look so pretty hahaha, we were like 2 crazy women running to each other, practically screaming each other's name out loud like small little kids excited to see their friends LOL! She's damn cute lahhhh. She should go Unity instead of Humility man, then can bully more ^^ Clownie loves Chickie! ;D

I don't have much mood to do homework -.- Hey, finally I have the time to relax you know! But homework is piling up, ah shucks man. It's almost the end of november /: 1 more month to go and its 2009 already. Ah so bloody fast, going to Sec 4 already /: O levels, urgh, horrible. Okay I'll go play Maple and then do some homework. Hopefully I have the motivation to revise, study and do homework -.-

Byeeeeee ;D

2008-11-27T04:25:00.000-08:00

Jing Xi, Myself, Imm Joo & Phoenicia at yesterday's singout :D

I look so friggin' short in that photo OMG. I'm 15 years old now and I'm shorter than Imm Joo and Phoenicia who are 14 years old -.- Omg, I feel so sad! HAHA! But short people are fun sia! :D Mdm Hayati very cute, and she's one of my victims of my teasing :D Such teachers like her are so fun you know! ;D Ah I forget to take photo with Yong Lin D: Nvm, next time will come :D

As those who read my blog earlier on, you might have notice I removed a post I posted yesterday. He tried to make conversation with me whee :D It's a good thing but I was damn friggin' sad yesterday, sorry dear /: I'm sorry for not putting myself into your shoes /: I love you alot a lot alot ... alot!! :D :D :D

I didn't eat much for dinner. I just ate a piece of meat and a piece of egg. I felt very full, probably its because I ate Takoyaki and chocolate muffin ;x Went to Far East Plaza with Rima. The dress I chose for her is nice. Hor Rima? :D She bought lots of things HAHAHA! Heels, earrings, bracelets, necklace, dress, food. Wow. Thanks for the muffin treat and the bracelet (: Now I think I look very weird with red hair band, red earrings, black rose necklace and bracelets with the black dress and my flats lol -.- Oh well, I'll try and decide (:

My sis got an ipod nano too -.- but hers is yellow or rather golden in colour HAH! I'm totally in love with mine. Deep purple. CHIO LORH! :D Even my maid says so (: Aww. I finally won a solitaire on the nano. LIKE FINALLY! I played the game for 9 times and I finally won at the 9th time. I know I very lousy lah but hor computer solitaire easier to win ;x

Marvin said I'm a small size cute girl LOL! I'm so much better to fit that description rather than that stupid fugly slut right! I bet other people fit that description much better too. He said that I'm shrinking when I said he's still growing -.- EVIL MARVIN HAHAHA! HERES ANOTHER PARAGRAPH FOR YOU HAHA! Just that no touching words LOL! He's my best junior ever :D He and Titus are my joker juniors while I'm the clown seniors. I know it sounds retarded but we're quite close as a section! (: He's very understanding too :D Yesterday he's so poor thing /: She deserve something BAD. Nevermind, I believe in KARMA. Haha! Cheer up junior :D

I learn to be more understanding now.

2008-11-24T09:27:00.000-08:00

Haha, I went out to shop with Sook Chin! :D She's one funny and cute girl! :D We went to Far East Plaza, kinda got lost but we still found the place anyway. The things there are like so damn cheap can?! Oh and its my first time going there so I'm a bit 'wow' at certain things HAHAHA! I seldom go out you know lol. I bought 3 necklaces for $10. CHEAP RIGHT HAHAHA. I sound like so 'Auntie' now lol! Gave 1 to Sook Chin for her super duper early birthday present for next year (: She keeps trying things on me -.- She likes to aim bangles at me LOL! Shopping with her is damn fun lah! :D Looked at other shops and some clothes interest me but the price is -.- so in the end, end up in This Fashion. That is so predicted haha!

Daddy called me while I was eating with Sook Chin at KFC. Meltz makes people full sia -.- Shouldn't have eat it lol. He asked me what colour do I want for an ipod Nano lol. I was shocked HAHA. Ipod Nano leh. Apple stuffs are all very expensive you know. He gave me some colours and mostly are weird colours. I chose deep purple. ITS SO NICE YOU KNOW! Sook Chin is very jealous of me because now I own 3 MP3s ;x Thanks for giving me advice in accessories and clothes! :D :D

Haha, my ipod nano is so cool! Damn sleek and pretty :D THE COLOUR VERY NICE! OMG I'M IN LOVE WITH PURPLE :D Haha! I actually spend a few hours finding out how to transfer songs from the computer to the nano -.- Urgh, waste my time. I tried dragging but failed. Then suddenly I try again just now, can already -.- Okay nothing much to blog also. Bye :D

2008-11-23T05:15:00.000-08:00

Suddenly I, am in front of the lights
Everything, I'm feeling
Scary and beautiful at the same time
And every day I try just to breathe
I want to show the whole world
The truth inside of me

Suddenly people know my name
Suddenly everything has changed
Suddenly I feel so alive
In the blink of an eye

My dreams begin to rain
Suddenly time, feels like the wind
It changes everywhere I go
I'm just trying to fit in
Now here I stand
And I'm still just that girl
I'm following my heart
In this amazing crazy world

Suddenly people know my name
Suddenly everything has changed
Suddenly I feel so alive
In the blink of an eye
Suddenly I am center stage
Suddenly I am not afraid
Suddenly I believe again
In a blink of an eye it's happening now

As my dreams begin to rain
I want to say to love me for me
What's inside
I'm gonna be positive, not run away, so much for you
This is my life

Suddenly I am center stage
Suddenly I am not afraid
Suddenly I believe again
In the blink of an eye
My dreams begin to reign

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I installed Maple this afternoon. Whoo, like finally. My Maple Kor, Jayden was kinda shocked because I whisper (its called that if you want to talk to someone without anyone seeing what you typed) to him saying hello. He deleted me off his buddy lists and he said I told him to do that -.- Oh well, I can't remember much because its been almost a year without logging in or playing Maple. Maple and books are now occupying my mind. I'm thinking of things which I shouldn't be thinking of but the things are now are making me think that way.

I'm waiting and waiting, but nothing came at all. I'm upset and disappointed at the same time. Maybe you're busy, and yeah I understand but that doesn't mean you can always put me aside. Even 5 minutes is better than nothing but I don't even have that 5 minutes. What went wrong? I want to know, I want to remove that obstacle but I don't even know what went wrong. Sometimes, your image has become a blur in me now. Tossing and turning, trying to sleep but I can't. You're always on my mind. But am I always on yours?

2008-11-21T23:56:00.000-08:00

I pen down all my opinions, thoughts and my feelings down but I erased it all. No point in showing it to people when they don't understand what I'm going through. To be honest, it was very disappointing, hurtful and angry. You show good discipline and attitude when Alumni came. When they're gone, you revert back to your original image. Thanks a lot for giving shit to the 3 of us. Having the mentality that Majors are having it easy because they did not do any hentak-ing, foot drill, keep scolding people etc, you're SO WRONG. Try putting yourselves into our shoes and you'll know what we're going through.

Wake up people. Seriously, WAKE UP. Put in all your effort in every practice. Give Mr Ng a Silver award before he leave. Make him be proud of this band. What is so hard about it? Practice makes perfect, that's what my Dad always say. You reap what you sow. How much effort you put in is how much you get for your reward. That's also what my Dad always says to me. If you want people to praise you for something, put in all your effort, your best ability. That's what evolves the world through many centuries.

We're all supposed to be a bunch of happy little kiddos yesterday but you choose to spoil the whole thing. Some of you even said 'the camp suck' or 'they shouldn't give the itinerary lorh. no use one'. Thanks for giving such comments and it hurts so badly that I felt like crying when I hear them. I envy you people for being so carefree and relax. Being able to laugh and eat with your group of friends, nothing to worry about. We have so many things to worry about. Like when things go wrong, we have to find solutions to solve it or be prepared for scoldings. You bunch have nothing to worry about it and there you go complaining.

When we're in front talking. Apparently, any alumni, teachers, majors or any committee are in front talking, shut up and give the basic respect and attention to us. Basic courtesy. Don't you learn all that in primary school? We're now grown teenagers. We should uphold basic discipline. How you all behave yesterday is like primary school kids who know NOTHING about courtesy. Thanks alot man, for all these shitty stuffs you give back to us. You don't even appreciate it. I wanted to give all of you some chocolates or sweets for good behaviour and improvement in certain aspects, you give me shitty stuff and I decided not to give. You don't give me the chance to reward you. But I found out that you are complacent. Once you get praised, you immediately slack down. Even if there's praise, you DON'T even bother to clap for yourself, thinking everything is so lame or even ashamed.

I have high expectations of my section because Saxophone has never let people worry before but now, it has. When I was a sec 1, we slack sometimes but when it comes to actual playing, we play it well. But now, its totally the opposite. I want the standard to be like last time. What's so hard? /:

I spend the time where I should be spending with Yong Lin, my friends, my family and my free time in planning things and trying to improve certain things. Yes, I did complain but I did it willingly because I care. Now things with my priorities are going wrong. I seldom see Yong Lin and my friends because I'm always busy with things. Relationships between us are getting more distant. In the end, I don't get any understanding (except for some) but I ended up getting attitude problems, badmouthings and shitty stuffs. ' THANKS ' A WHOLE LOAD PEOPLE, ' thanks ' very much.

Sook Chin is going to back tomorrow! And we're going to go shopping on Monday with Rima and co. for clothes for Singout and Mr Ng's wedding :D I can't wait! Oh and I haven't got a chance to ask Daddy if my plan is upgraded to unlimited sms one or what and if I can go out on Monday and Wednesday (Singout) ;x Nevermind, I'll ask him tomorrow or later. I'm going to enjoy myself and do my homework for the rest of the holidays. I put them aside for a very very long time. I deserve it.

I'm very happy when someone (I'm not going to mention who, but Karmila knows) reflected and actually sent me a sorry message. It's good to see that you've reflected and know where are your mistakes! (: Simple things can just make me happy, but only 1 or a few did it. It's so disappointing lols.

And special thanks to Yong Lin, Rima, Jing Xi, Samuel, Marvin, Jasmine, Jun An, Yi Rong and maybe some others for being very very understanding! You guys are simply the best! :D Rima don't jealous of Marvin ;x I'll write one soon! :D

2008-11-18T05:21:00.000-08:00

Not a single goodbye you left

Went to school today to pass up PSL camp money. Met Zi Hao in the canteen. He was shocked that I could come into the school in fbt and 2 Sin'07 class tee. But the security guard came and asked me if its my house clothes and such, I replied no, and repeated for I-don't-know how many times that its my last year class tee -.- Chat a little with Zi Hao and badminton people came down. Kai Yang, Nicholas and Veron sat at our table. Gossip about some people LOL! I feel damn bad you know! Haha. Went to HG mall with them. They went food court to have their lunch while I went to the library to borrow some books. I need something to kill time because I have to collect my biometric passport with Daddy and my brother. There's alot people queuing up to collect their biometric passport! Haha. Daddy bought us Ripple icecream with biscuit and went home.

I think my plan has been changed or upgraded to student plan :D I hope its UNLIMITED FREE SMS! ;D This guy called me asking for Mr Wong and I handed the phone to Daddy, and they talked about my plan lol. Then he said to the phone in the lift lobby that youngsters use sms like siao thn I mouthed to him that is band not me lol. Apparently he didn't see it -.- I asked him about it and he said add another 500 more. I was o.O then I ask is it unlimited free sms, he replied yeah. And I said unlimited free sms better, save money. Somemore recession coming sia. HAHA! Hope its unlimited :D

Band camp tomorrow! Hopefully everything will go smoothly which is kinda impossible. Confirm will get scoldings lol. Anyway, right after band camp is over, I'm going to sleep as long as I can and wake up do homework. I've got TONS of homework to complete and I have not touch any of them yet! /: I think I'll go school early on Saturday to ask Mdm Hayati Math stuffs. Anybody wants to come with me? LOL! I doubt so. Saturday, everybody wants to sleep in.

HAHA! Jing Xi was on TV on the program Quan Neng Qiao Ma Ma lol. Rima missed the part where Jing Xi is shown /: I saw Ashley, Samuel and Teeyong haha. Funny sia lol. I was damn excited until my sister ask me to shut up and let her watch in peace LOL! Jing Xi was very disappointed and angry because only 10s of him was shown on TV HAHA! TV always cut off one to fit everything just nice in that particular time.

I want Sook Chin to come back NOW! I miss her so much. I got a lot of things to pour out to her. But she iwll only be back on the 22nd or 23rd /: SOOK CHIN! YOU BETTER FASTER COME BACK!!!!!!! Don't forget our shopping trip on the 24th! :D I miss you sia! Oh and your appeal is really successful lols. I went to see it recently, got your name haha. Your friend didn't bluff you! Haha. Come back safely with presents! :D :D

seriously, what exactly is wrong between us? /: You promised to spend time with me but you didn't. Okay maybe soon. I'm not sure what is going on in your mind. Yes I told you I understand that you have many things going on and that's why you can't spend time with me. I also said that if you have the time, you'll give them to me. We're not as loving as when we just started. Whenever Jian Zhong comes to see Yi Rong, I envy them. They're so loving. You hardly have the time for me! You promised to spend time with me on 3 Nov but I got NCO camp. You came for the POP but you left for a meeting after the whole thing. I cried in the cab because I'm so sad and disappointed that NCO camp has ended and you left. I thought you will stay to wait for me but you didn't. That feeling was awful /; Just now you online, I was so damn bloody happy, but the convo just lasted for I think 15min and then it died. And you went off without saying goodbye. All the signs are showing /:

2008-11-17T06:16:00.000-08:00

AHAHAHA, BAND CAMP IS APPROVED WHOOOOOO! What's left now is the printing of certificates and the actual camp. Hope it runs smoothly! There'll be a footdrill test ARGHH, so going to flunk it. I promised to practice today but I ended up watching TV -.- Never mind! I'll do it later in the night where no one is watching wheeeee!

Stock check today was quite alright. Marvin was so friggin' nice enough to come help me out! Aww Marvin, you're simply the best junior ever! I love you! ;D Note: not that kind of love you know HAHA! He's so damn nice I tell you! He and some other people whom I don't know who help me to rearrange the whole of Saxophone's scores according to alphabetical order. But pity that my own scores was being dump into the huge mess of papers and I don't have much scores now /: The school suck a lot in technology and resources wise. The computers in the computer labs are so damn bloody slow and low ink cartridge are not being replaced -.- I wasted 2 or 3 hours of my time there I think -.- Finally went to the staff lounge to try. Mrs Nathan gave up on the computer lab too ;x After spending quite an amount of time there, camp booklet, command list etc are finally completed! Whoohoo! Went back to music room to find most people left already and they're all playing haha. Now the band store is much cleaner, neater and more organised (: Good job to those who came to help out!

Special thanks to Marvin Yeo, my dearest joker junior (besides Titus) who has been so understanding towards me because I'm the SL and a Major and thus I need to do a lot of things. Thanks for willing to help me out in coaching Titus, checking instruments, rearranging scores and other aspects! I'll miss you when I graduate but I promised to come back! :D Really, thanks a whole armytanks trucks aeroplanes cars chunks loads for everything! Sorry for making you run last time /: And be honoured that this paragraph is solely for you only! :D :D :D

After stock check, accompanied Jasmine to buy her 2 pens which are meant for her mother and went to Flip Flop to look at slippers. I still have not buy my slippers yet! LOL! The incident still brought laughter to Jasmine HAHA! Bought some finger food from OCK and took 112 home. I keep criticising passerbys LOL! I feel damn bad ;x Oh and we saw this guy who took the same bus as us, look like Yun Xuan, the Clarinetist who changed schools or went to China. An exact replica! That guy's hair looks rebonded and he keeps shaking his hair like he's doing a shampoo advert LOL! Damn hilarious xD

Stupid Yong Lin went to Korea this afternoon -.- He's always away or busy one /: Be careful and enjoy your trip! Be careful when doing dangerous stunts arh! I want to see you back in one piece without any serious injury de! Lol.

I'm so sleepy and I want you beside me now /:

2008-11-16T14:30:00.000-08:00

I got up damn friggin' early today (10AM) because I got worried about band stuffs OMG -.- Few days ago, I dream about me asking Mr Ng something about camp. OMG. I think I worry too much already -.- I had a horrible dream last night! The dream was about some computer guy I met through a game forcing me to marry him and not marrying Yong Lin LOL! I know its a bit far-fetched but I can't control what I dream you know -.- The computer guy's looks was a bit blurred but I know HE'S UGLY HAHAHA. I just praised Yong Lin for being handsome LOL. I bet he'll smile when he looks at this! :D He's also a very loser kid HAHAHA =P

Eeek! Rima has not replied to my text yet D: RIMA FASTER REPLYYYYYYYYY!!! REPLY REPLY REPLY! Diao -.-", I wish I can spam her but sad to say I can't. I used 1200+ texts for this month already ;x Mummy said she will ask Daddy if my plan can be upgraded to the unlimited free sms one. I told her can save money sia, since there will be a financial crisis next year or something. OH RIMA REPLIED! Finally ;D

Shucks, I have to start doing AM homework already. I need to pass them up tomorrow and I need to pass down message about tomorrow's stock check (but I need to ask Mrs Nathan about some issues about it), bug Mr Ng about band camp proposal. Okay, many things to do now -.- I can't wait for band camp to be over! Once its over, I'll start to study study study! And I'm going to drag Yong Lin down. If you're reading this now, you better save 1 day or more for me! You owe me (:

Oh and thanks Jasmine Boh for the saxophone minature :D :D

Okay done.

2008-11-14T02:48:00.000-08:00

Haha, Chemistry lessons. I wished I never missed the November program! BUT I never regretted going for NCO camp :D Guess what, I'm a PSL -.- Anne told me and Amanda that we're PSLs. OMG, I BECOME A PSL. Okay maybe I should be elated but seriously, it's VERY VERY shocking. I asked Anne who nominated me and she said its Ms Lim o.O I don't even know her and she doesn't even know my name I think -.- Siao one, I become PSL then the class I take will be damn suay LOL! The PSL camp is from 26 december to 28 december. 3D2N. Omg, after Christmas -.-" I'm leaving for USA on 11 december! ;D I'm back in Singapore on either 22 or 23 december. Mummy isn't sure of the date because of the time zone thing. HAHA.

After chemistry, I attended Bio lesson LOL! Veron, Anne, Amanda and Vivienne are Bio students. Veron left right after chemistry because she got badminton training. I'm the only Physics students. GREAT, I MISSED MORE THAN 1 CHAPTER. Omg -.- 1 to 1 with Mr Chang very funny LOL!

Ah I got very angry and fed up. Seriously, why things are always unending?! I thought I finally finished what I'm supposed to do, and then things started coming in AGAIN. What the fuck is this? Now I have more responsibilities. Everything is piling up and never finished. I just want some time to do the things I want to do without worrying about anything and doing my homework. I'm lagging so behind lah! It's so fucking frustrating to have something you wanted to do hanging there waiting for you to complete it but you can't. I walked a few steps forward to my homework point and I ended up walking backwards instead, back to the band point. Yes yes, I must prioritise my work and manage my time, but seriously, I don't have enough time to manage! 24 hours is simply NOT ENOUGH for me. As time ticks by and dateline is approaching, I'm very worried and panick. So far, only Vivienne understands because we're in the same boat all in all.

All good things ALWAYS come to an end but it seems like all the bad things DOES NOT COME TO AN END. What logic is this?! Omg, I really wanted to play table tennis in Erica's house. It really take my stress away. My eye sight degree is increasing every single day, I'm hunching my back so often that it hurts when I tried to stand up straight, I can't pull my right hand straight because I hurt my muscle (insufficient exercise). I feel like going into a deep coma and never wake up. I can only be free from all things only when I'm sleeping. I got A LOT ALOT of responsibilities. It's pretty amazing that I have not fall sick YET.

It's so hard to manage so many things. I want to complain and confide in my parents, but they don't understand at all. I either end up with a lecture or a scolding. Life is really filled with unfairness. I don't even have someone to complain to except Vivienne. We have to live with it until we graduate from this school. My sis said secondary school life no stress one. Hell, it's a whole load of bullshit. If there's no stress, I wouldn't be typing LIKE THIS.

I'm always afraid to sleep. My phone always vibrates with messages from band people. Yes I worry alot, but I can't help it! Vivienne and I are perfectionists, we want things to go perfect. We know it's impossible, but we try to do it as perfect as possible so as to receive lesser scoldings/lectures. It's so tiring but I have to persevere and go through every hard time. It will be good training for me. I hope.

My phone bill will burst very badly. I already used 1200+ sms this month. Tomorrow its the 50th Anniversary Concert Dinner. Argh, hopefully it went well. I'm so screwed if the Alumni came in the wrong attire /: See! I got so much stress and pressure on me lah! Can give discount on the stress and pressure you are giving me? /:

2008-11-13T05:27:00.000-08:00

Okay I edited this post lol. There's band rehearsal for the 50th Anniversary Alumni Concert Dinner. Band was the LAST item to perform and we have to wait hours before we start OMG. We were supposed to end at 12PM and they bombed us with the news that we're ending at 3+ -.- That's a problem because the consent form said it ends at 12PM haha. But it got solved by Mdm Seah lols. Jackson was super hilarious! It's kinda true that majors get along well with Alumni (:

I ate cup noodles in school with Sook Chin, Rima and Imm Joo. Didn't went out to eat with Anthea and co. because we only had 45min to eat and there's dragging here and there, there's not much left. Hmm, some people are really so anti-social -.- Seriously, its hard to get along with anti-social people D: Finished eating and went back to the hall. Apparently, teachers don't follow what they say. They told us NOT TO BE LATE while some of them are late for 20min or so -.- Might as well give us the time to have a longer lunch break lah! Then we tried the actual thing with the waiting room and stuffs. Sook Chin told me something which is the same as what Veron said too. Haha, Jun An knows it too. I don't think it will happen but I also hope it won't happen! Haha.

Rehearsal was over and band can be dismissed earlier but kena delayed -.- Received set piece today! Everybody is buzzing with news of set piece haha. Mdm Seah came and brief all of us and we were at last, dismissed. Went to the mall with Sook Chin to buy her black hair spray and went to Mac to eat ice cream lols. Sook Chin tried the hair spray by spraying some onto the tray paper. Then she followed one particular instructions and it end up spraying herself instead of her hair -.- Her uniform kena a lot of black spray LOL. The instruction she followed is supposed to be used when the spray is finishing. Now she wasted almost half of the black spray and her uniform has lots of black spots. It was damn hilarious lorh! (:

Ah I'm so tired! D: Tomorrow I have make up Chemistry lesson from 9AM to 10AM. 1hour omg. I was thinking why not 2hours lol. I'll use the time to complete AM questions. I asked for extended dateline. Camp is all okay except for POP awards. I sent all to Mr Ng already, hopefully it can get approved asap. He's very busy these days /:

Yay tomorrow Yong Lin is coming back! ;D Whee, I miss him a lot /: He's one busy kid haha. TOMORROW TOMORROW TOMORROW! :D :D :D

2008-11-10T06:48:00.000-08:00

Some piccas of NCO are up! I koped them from 34th NCO Saxophonists group in Facebook. Credits for the pictures to whoever who took them! ;D

I look retarded. I love this picture! ;D

That's A LOT of Saxophones isn't it? (:

My hand spoil the image man! Haha.

MY LOVELY SECTION! ;D SAXOPHONE ROCKKKKKKKKK!

Haha, open house today. I think my playing really suck like shit! I don't even have that groove even though the song keeps playing in my head D: I miss playing with my NCO section mates! I really feel the groove with them. I guess I can only play in like slow and got feeling de songs haha!

I LOVE YOU DARLING!
Be safe and have fun during your attachment! (:

2008-11-08T05:12:00.000-08:00

I'm so tired! 34th NCO camp is over /: I miss my crazy sexy funny saxophonists and all the people that participate in the camp! :D We took LOADS of pictures but I don't have with me right now because its all in their handphones or cameras haha! My temporary phone sucks man. I can't wait for december so I can change my phone! :D

NCO camp was really fantastic like siao eh! I enjoyed myself very much! But there're some people who spoil some of the camp -.-" Slut and bitch -.- ANYWAY, Saxophone and Group F rockkkk! ;D Actually, 34th NCO campers rock! It's really fun and motivating! I wish we can form up a band and we can then play together! Totally fun and shiok. I miss Janan and Gideon! They're my 2 fabulous entertainers! Not to mention Elissa, Santa Claus (Jasmine), Mariya, etc. I love all of them! When I have pictures, I'll post them up! :D

Honey, cheer up okay! Even if you appeal failed (CHOY TOUCH WOOD!), you can still do well in F&N! ;D My friend said that when you're in the last class, you'll work even harder to become the best. I totally agree with that! So what if you're in the last class? You're sitll capable of achieving excellent results! What matters is only your results, not the class you're in. Show them you're capable! I have absolute faith in you that you can do it! ;D If the subject is something you don't like, try to like it. Spend more time on it to improve it. Even if your friends are not with you in your new class, you can make new friends! (: I'm always here to be your listening ear when you need me :D Take care and don't fall sick! (:

Okay bye!

2008-11-05T05:26:00.000-08:00

I had so much fun in NCO camp! It's so frigging fun! Group F totally rocks the most I tell you! The games was fun whoo! It's totally AMAZING! I wish that we, the 34th NCO campers can form up a band and be conducted by Mr Leonard Tan! Then is like damn shiok okay! Hahaha. Elissa, Cheryl and I were orginally from Group E, but Group F has little people and the facilitators asked 3 or 4 of us to join Group F, so the 3 of us went to join F haha. We made friends and take a group picture. Whoohoo! Group F ROCKS OKAY! :D

It's the 3rd day of the camp already and it's going to end soon /: I'LL MISS NCO! I LOVE MY SECTION MAN! They're like so funny! Janan ALWAYS makes me laugh like some mad woman LOL. Gideon also! The two of them like to bully me one hahahaha. Funny people! Whoohoo!

I really felt no stress at all during the camp! It's a super duper uber good thing! I've never felt so happy and relaxed lah! Okay I have, but not so often. As you can see, I'm always 'working' and 'working' and 'working' -.-" Haha. Friday its POP already! D: I invited a few people only because they say we can invite a few only. Actually, they said 2. But my section said I can invite as many as I want. Even though they say they can be only be entered by invitation cards, but they never see the card one lorh. I don't feel like giving anybody the invitation card because each DM and BM gets only ONE invitation card! It's like precious lorh hahaha.

Okay, I should turn in now. Tomorrow I have to wkae up at 5.45AM. OMG -.-" Oh I realise Cheryl from my section is Shi Qi's best friend! What a small world isn't it? Bye lovelies (:

2008-11-04T06:11:00.000-08:00

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
when you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes, What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
and I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

2008-11-03T06:24:00.000-08:00

NCO camp is fun! Janan keeps making me laugh HAHAHA. The way he imitate Gideon zhao xia's voice and white chicks is super hilarious! HE KEEPS ON BULLYING ME!!!! Hahahaha. He's damn pro in saxophone and funny man! Hahaha. I'm so happy during NCO that I don't think about anybody haha! Okay except Yong Lin ;x

I don't know why, I miss Yong Lin a lot /: It's been quite a long period of time ever since we actually see and talk to each other properly /: I miss you!

Okay bye (:

2008-10-31T00:18:00.000-07:00

Hello :D

I'm very angry at 7AM because my fourth toe on my right foot keeps itching. A mosquitoe or something bite/sting it. IT'S SO IRRITATING WHEN I'M TRYING TO SLEEP YOU KNOW! -.- Annoying. It kept me from falling asleep and I manage to sleep 30minutes later and being woken up by the hand phone alarm at 7.45AM -.- Sickening!

I went to MRT station to wait for Jessamine and met Chooi Thyng. We waited for Jess (she's always on time one haha. I'm always early) and we went to school together with Shi Min who is waiting for Chooi Thyng at the top of the escalator. The HK twinning people are backkkkkkkk! Whoo! I miss them a lot! Vivienne told me Mique died D: It contracted a wet bottom disease /: She said I remind her of Mique because I gave that name to her hamster. I'll miss and love you forever Mique! Even though I never see you or hold you before, I still will love and miss you! All hamsters are cute, so you're definitely CUTER! Rest in peace and be happy with those hammies up in heaven!

English debate workshop was boring but quite okay. Mrs Teo said she is very disappointed that the second best class has such behaviour. When you're in the best or second best class, people expect a lot from the class -.- Anyway, today's the first and also my last session. I'm off to NCO camp next week from Monday to Friday! I'll definitely miss a lot of lessons.

Joshua said he loves me! HAHAHA! Don't be mistaken okay! He said that because I mentioned his name 10 times in my previous blog entry. He actually counted! LOOK HERE JOSHUA WHOO. YOUR NAME IS HERE. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. He is very jealous of me because I get to go school later today! HAHA. And an unfortunate thing just fallen on him LOL. Poor Joshua AWW. Wahahaha.

I seldom see you nowadays. I miss you a lot /:

2008-10-30T08:07:00.000-07:00

I've just set up this blog because Bernard wants me to. He's a good friend (:

Not much things to say either. Jasmine said I'm like a walking zombie, so weak, fragile and frail, like I may fall anytime. Things weren't going the way it's supposed to. Problems are surfacing. Fatigue is overcoming me. I'm getting sleepier and sleepier each day. It's probably the best damn thing ever to be able to sleep throughout my whole life. Sleeping is afterall, my favourite hobby of all (:

I love this song from HSM3 --- Can I Have This Dance. It's a nice song. Everybody is so into HSM right now! Poor Marvin, who don't understand why people loves HSM so much lol. He doesn't know much about the whole thing. I don't know either, but I just like the show and the songs. Anthea and I were like full of envy lah! High Schools in USA are like so damn cool! I wish I could enroll into East High! :D

There's school tomorrow but I don't need to attend it like normal school time. It's Bio in the first period! Physics students get to go school an hour later. JOSHUA IS SO JEALOUS HUR HUR! Haha, he's damn funny. He wanted to con me into eating breakfast with him! LOL. Okay, maybe not exactly con. Invite me. Haha. I look like some stupid idoit if I eat breakfast with him and have to wait for more than an hour for the second period to start -.-" It's fun walking to school with him! Haha. He keeps laughing at me because my slippers, shoes and bike got stolen/taken away by some sick asses. Yes, you heard me. Someone TOOK my slippers and shoes. Bike still can fetch some money okay!

Yesterday I went to Jasmine's house to watch The Pacifier and White Chicks. It's damn hilarious lah! We live in the same condo. JOSHUA TOO! HAHA. After watching the two movies, I wanted to go home and I realise my slippers were missing! I placed it outside her house. Many of you might be wondering how come I place my slippers outside her house. In case you people were not noticing, SOME of us put our shoewear out the house and not inside. Only some people does that. I don't put my shoewear inside my house either. We searched the neighbours' shoe racks on the same floor as her, still can not find. We were laughing like some mad woman! I thought I have to go barefoot home, but Jasmine is kind and lent me her slippers. I returned the slippers to her this morning. THANKS JASMINE! ;D

I remember that during MYE this year, I got sick on my birthday and exam starts in 2 days. Yes, I know I am very unlucky to get sick on my birthday. I got food poisoning which turns out to be serious stomach flu. I recovered a week later. I wanted to wear my school shoes which were barely 6months old and quite new, and I realise they were stolen/taken away -.-" DAMN SUAY LAH. Hahaha.

Joshua just told me he went to collect his bike. Then I told him my bike got stolen too. Somewhere this year or last year. I can't remember. He started laughing at me -.-

JOSH/Lokua says:
okok wait i go collect bike
shumei the clown says:
loll
JOSH/Lokua says:
whoo gt back my bike
shumei the clown says:
loll
shumei the clown says:
someone stole my bike
shumei the clown says:
damn
JOSH/Lokua says:
LOL
JOSH/Lokua says:
SHU MEI
JOSH/Lokua says:
why people keep stealing ur things?!
shumei the clown says:
LOLLL
shumei the clown says:
HOW I KNOW!

He's one funny person lorh! Haha. I am very happy today because many people talked to me! Ming Jing, Marvin, Bernard, Jun Ler, Joshua, Eileen, Rima, Jing Xi. Haha JOSHUA MAKE MY DAY TODAY! WHOO. I don't knw why, but he make me laugh a lot hahaha. I laugh at the slightest things. Oh another thing. Thanks Lynette, for the box of chocolate cakes from Korea! ;D Okay I'm done here.

Vanessa Hudgens & Zac Efron - Can I Have This Dance

[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

[Troy, Gabriella]
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you through it all

[Troy, Gabriella]
And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Gabriella And Troy]
Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

Another day, another casualty. I'm afraid to fall because there's no one to catch me.